vanessa
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Wednesday, August 25, 2004
hahax...todae he talk to me...ahahahahahax...=X
went to school later todae...estimate the time..den see can take same bus as him anot...haha...wah..i damn accurate lor...took same bus as him...=)
came down the bus...he was behind me...he come walk beside me,den ask why i so sad...[i was like,,,why everytime he see me he muz ask why i so sad...].....dunno...den we walk and talk,walk and talk...he veh funni...
he sae that his friend spray water on his pants the dae b4...he was rubbing his pants, when ms fu ask him to stop...haha...he sae ms fu pervertic wor...haha...
love, vannie. (3:10 AM)
Thursday, August 19, 2004
todae school was stil okay except for pe...hahax...don tink i wanna tok bout it here...spoilt my bloggie only...=S oh ya..todae is teachers' day audition for band...=)
had maths for i tink 2 1/2 hrs..we left at 2.45...so late wor...actualli wanted to leave earlier de..but haven got my maths test back den cant leave lor...was veh hungry...felt so sick and cold...
after maths, i went to the music room to put my bag first...open the door,den see him standing there,cleaning his instrument...=) without fail,he called me "pervert" again...nvm..i din care...juz walking away...den he behind me niam niam niam.."cry summore" "cry summore"...*bleahx*=p
i went to the canteen for lunch...was realli hungry then...hahax i bought marigold grape =) was quite nice la..got funny taste =X...i managed to finish it also..hahax...went up after eating...left them...haii..so sadx..=(
joined the ppl...he wasn't there...later heard frm mh that when i went up,he came down..hahx..nvm..later he came up....he sae wad no one go call him up...crap only...serves you right..hahax..=X
4 o colck le..time for the audition..we run through the pieces one more time...wah..so exciting wor...he stand behind jeremy and i...=)
den when yee lu talking to libing they all, he come and flick my hair...wad onli..i siam la of cos...but wherever i siam,his hand will still continue flicking hair...haii...sit there dont move...finally he stopped...=S my hair become so messy!!!!!!!=X
hahax...going dwn to the hall le...he ask me help him take instrument wor...(cos bois have to carry chairs..haha)...dotx..why he everytime oso ask me help him take his instrument de??i oso not qm...cant anyhow take de...[mabbe he wan me to get punish wor?]=X
we went down...the audition,i dunno....results haven come out yetx...at first i got the feeling that we will get in..but now,no...think we wont get in le..haii...
love, vannie. (2:18 AM)
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
wah...todae band practice like dunno wad wor...=X haii..veh sianx...mr neo dunno wad happen,angry,den left le...at 5 pm........guai lan...
we already tried our best...its not like as if we din try...haii...he always biased towards de sec 1s one la..wad can we do??
todae during band,he keep asking me to help him worx...i mean like how man??i am playing clarinet...u are playing "........"..........den how am i gonna help u??keep saying..."pervert...help me...help me..." =S
oh...he asked me for the book's title...he sae he wanna read...nah...i din tell him...din wanna care bt him oso...*bleahx*=p
guess wad he did??he almost pour that bottle of oil(frm wad i heard) onto my junior's hair...he so playful....my junior so innocent wor...he also wanted to squirt it at me...this time was even scarier....some of the oil dripped on the floor when he squirted it.....=X nvm...later he dare not onli...=)
oh...now chatting with him...junnow i go online den mj jeremy and him come tok to me...hahax...jereny click wrongly la...den i go tell him i just online only,den got three ppl come tok to me le..
den he sae "wadeva,nvm,don care bout me"...at first i din noe wad he actualli meant....i still go sae "whose caring bt u??" ohmygod...now i feel so badx...den i tot he angry...=X but he sae he busy...=)
OoOoOoOoOoO...................i realli feel so bad worx...=( .......i told jie bout everythg..she sae he actualli flirting...hahax...flirting wor...she sae he purposely sae till like he jealous liddat.....i dunno...still tink i veh bad...haii...=X
nvm...hahax...din noe he will flirt manx...hahax..=)
love, vannie. (2:24 AM)
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
todae school was like dunno wad....okays la..except english...si bei guai lan lor...siandiaox...
to dae aft sch got maths test...was studying in the canteen...actually not realli studying la..couldn't get anything into my head...saw him walking into the canteen with his friend...
oh...den he walk past me and called me "pervert" again...hahax...den fel & mh see him like see ghost liddat...so excited for wad?! actually see him coming le..but juz din tell them cuz they facing opp direction..haha =)
wah!!diz fel and mh got prob de..haii..he go where oso muz tell me...siao siao ar...but i noticed this veh long ago le..he likes to carry his baggie everywhere he goes...he go buy food oso carrying the bag...haha =p
den he was standing there,drinking marigold grape...ok...fel immediately went to buy a pkt,wanting to give me..juz be cos he was drinking that...omg...fel even showed me the way he drink and hold the pkt...sot sot liaos...=X hahax..in the end,i push the straw into her mouth...hehex...she no choice,have to finish the whole pkt..hahax..=)
he eat finish le,den he went to the bb court with his fwenx....hahax..we followed him...mh and i...he was standing at the parapet there..i walk pass,den as usual, he called me "pervert" again...don care him..ask him quiet...den mh and i go ask ye chee qn...haha..i understand le...oh..den he and his fwenx go down play bb...=) mh wy and i left..
went for maths test at 4/7...was quite okay la..can do..hahax..mh and i discussing..hahax..but seriously can do la =)...aft that went to canteen do lit...hahax..finish writing the script le..hahax..so funny..=)
saw him at 4.51...mh telkl me de..he came frm the bb court...he actualli went there aft his test...=X i din noe..he walk here den there wit that usual guy...=) he left at 4.53...
i wanted to leave le..cuz jie ask me meet her den go buy mummy's present...[tmr her b'dae lehx!!!] meeting jie at 5.30 mah..so had to leave...mh and siti and i left together...
hahax..took the same bus as him..expected de mah...left 3 mins aft him =p.. i called jie when i boarded the bus...i walking to the middle mah..den got pass by him....i toking to jie..."hello, jie ar?"
guess wad??he come sae "pervert" to me again =P...hahax...den i ask him to "shhhhhhhhhh"......who ask him to so noisy...*bleahx*=p...he went down at sun plaza..=)
i went to causeway...met jie there...she ask me why juz now i "shhhhhhhhh"...nah... told her everythg...=) she sae he veh funny...like to li xiao...went to metro...hahax..bought i veh nice blouse and skirt...so beautiful wor...=) total amount $56.80...was worth the money..=)
love, vannie. (2:44 PM)
Saturday, August 14, 2004
i am realli sorrie for all the things i have done today...fel and mh,thanx for all ur concern...sorrie that i have made u all worried...my greatest apology goes to my mum and jie...SORRY...
today may be the saddest dae in my life...=( feel so guilty........sorrie...........
todae went for band...kk la..din run with dem...wasn't feelin well...felt like vomitting also dunno why...ah mah sae morning sickness..mabbe bahx..i find that if i don see de sun,i will have morning sickness..so weird..oh ya..met him on de bus..he was wearing spects..he looked old...*bleahx*=p..couldn't recognise at first...
during band,we warm up veh long..i tink bout one half hrs..haha..mr neo ask him to change place.to teach junior...he was somewhere behind/beside me..anything...
i was listening to clive and jeremy tokin..den i heard him whisper:"pervert..."dotx... he was callin me..i turn lor...smiled at me den call me "pervertic crybaby" again...ignored him...
he so damn kay po de lor..there was a chair behind me ma..so i go put my 'i recommend' on it...den he wanted to take my bk for many times..but i diao him...so he neva take..
a while later,the chair was moving...he carried the chair with one of his leg...moved it in front of him...irritating...he take my book,look at the cover pg..den smile at me...wah lau..he saw my full name le..he called me "hui shan" =p...
finally,after a long look at my book,he put back and move back the chair to original place...but dunno why suddenly de chair became beside him...don care oso..keep putting his spects on my bk..later i take, throw away den u noe ar!!!=X oh..we played blue ridge saga for the whole dae..=)during the break,saw him playing the guitar...i din noe tt he noes how to play a guitar...=)he played qing tian wor..
aft band,got drilling...yee lu take half of us..libing take de other half...i with yee lu...we broke off into our grp..den we drill drill drill....haii..so tiring...=X siti was practically laughing at us..
had drilling competition btw the two grps..de best three had to compete with each other..libing grp got sinyee,bryan,peter...my grp got raidah,shayfern,jeremy...all of them so funny wor..hahax..oops..=X i so bad..=p dey keep turning wrong way...haii..don wanna elaborate oso...our grp lost..cuz the other grp all oso senior mah..=S
aft band,i went home..quarelled wit mum...i din wanna go for tuition...i dunno why...juz got that stupid feeling..den bluff mum that got to do pj wit mh...haii..in the end i went out...pretend that i go do pj...but i go find yee lu dey all, who were playing badminton at sembawang...haii
i went there do my own work...din play...i dunno...aft that, went to causeway wit yee lu and sin yee..yee lu's racket spoilt...den i on my fone...wah..got a shock out of my life...de vibration cant stop...so many messages...all telling me that got ppl call me when i was unreachable...den i realised that mh fel mummy and jie were looking for me...
mummy message me..she ask if she could meet me,cos she was also at causeway............met her outside sportslink...she cried...i was like..wanting to cry...we went to cold storage...only then, then filian told me that they went to my school,sun plaza and then causeway, just to look for me...i realli din noe...i shouldn't off my fone...
going home de time,mum talked to me..i cried in the bus...reached home...was realli tired...haven stop crying..msg fel and mh...noe everything le..called fell..she ask me why i liddat...all i could sae was that i dunno.........sorrie.............
den came online...now toking to him...jie actually called him..fel oso...dey thuoght that i would be wit him...but no..he wasn't there...
sadx...now stil haven stop crying...he keep asking me not to cry...he sae he'll listen if i got anything to sae......told him everythg.....he tried to make me laugh oso..but i just merely smiled...sorrie...but i realli felt btr after talking to him...xie xie ni...=)
once again,sorrie to those who worried and cared for me...a big hug for u all..SORRIE...
love, vannie. (3:30 PM)
i wanna cry...haii...realli sadx...mabbe these few days i was realli hiding my feelings..=(
school was usual..nothing realli much...after school mh & fel saw him...i don care...=(..i dunno why...went home,,went to slp...haven been slpin well these few days......slp late...
all i can remember wad we did in class is de one where mh and i wrote a poem...during chinese lesson...the thought of it make tears flow...=(
"ni shi wo de bao bei, shi wo shi jie shang zui bao gui de ren,
ni shi wo shen ti de yi bu fen, mei you le ni, wo jiu huo bu xia qu,
ni shi wo shen ming zhong zui zhong yao de ren, wo xi wang,
wo nen pei ban zhe ni, you fu tong xiang, yao nan tong dang"
while writing this,i was thinking of him...haii...realli sadx...was giggling when reading it out in class...was hiding my feelings ya??=X
junnow fel send me the graduation song...de music like CANNON IN D liddat...so nice....got meaning de..if u realise...=) why "we'll still be frenx foreva" ??? no good..=( ya.."remember the times all the times we had together..." "will the past follow us like a shadow..." ???i realli dunno............
feel like i am crying.........sadx sadx sadx...mabbe have been realli hiding my real thoughts.....
the distance between u and me is getting further and further....i dunno why...thought of this make tears flow again...
like i always sae to you..."i am drowning...sinking deeper and deeper into the ocean...when the time is up,i'll just drown... i'll just let go of everything, and be gone forever..."
u always ask me not to think of these kinda things...but...wad can i do??its because of you that i have changed to be like this.......................
........................................................crying.......................................................................
love, vannie. (1:30 PM)
Friday, August 13, 2004
haii...todae was okay till after school..=X
todae go school, den took same bus...walk into de school den pretend neva see..haha =) i was behind la...haii...den me, mh, fel & wy go to de canteen...as usual, we waited for her to buy water den go for councillor check...
oh..den saw him at the piano...dun wanna care too..nah....hahax..=D saw mrs tee...mh sae she lookin fer us..i ran aft her..went to the staff rm,den she gave us a plastic bag of sweets chocolates and biscuits...sae wanna thank us for our hard work...*bleahx*=p...anyhow...
den go back parade sq..haha mh and i push everythng to fel..haha...sae mrs tee give her de...=P she oso don wan,so we go distribute to everyone..haha santa clause..=)
oh ya..actualli wanna give him de...den fel call him onli, he faster siam...???...dotx dotx..i oso dunno...he sae he don wan...anything lor...nvm..=)
den got lesson lesson...=) after school liaos,accompany wz and eel out to the bus stop....oh..den he was quite far behind me..i din noe..=) i don care oso..fel got this mad idea tat we take the bus,go one round,den alight at the opp bus stop...dotx.....crazie gal..=X
left sch at 4.30..dunno wad happen to wy...nvm...oso dun wanna tok so much bt it..=)call fel..tok tok tok..=D
do homework halfway,dose off..hahax..so tired wor..ystd reached home at 11 plus..=S.. i shower liaos,den come online..=)
chatted with yong sheng, then joon kiat, finally fel....thanx hor help me and jie so much!!*muackieX* found out that joon kiat veh sad...can see lor, obvious...=)
u must be strong k??=) don tink so much..=)
jk sae that fel and i tok de same de...keep sayin tat he act happie...its the fact..=p dunno why he go add me fel lihui and peihong in the conversation...no one tok den fel and i left...sianx=X
de concert ystd was veh nice...mr surapol veh cute!!=) his tie soo long..haha..=)de music is so nice..de best concert i have ever seen!! =D
pity u din go...or u'll noe how nice it was.......sadx..
love, vannie. (2:52 PM)
Wednesday, August 11, 2004
Jun & Jen were a pair of youngcouple...Jun was veri charming & many girls could`t helpfalling in love with him... therefore, he becamequite a flirt.As for Jen, she was an ordinary girl withaveragelooks. Although there were quite a number ofguys chasing her, jenonly had Jun in her heart.altought She knewthatone day Jun would eventually leave her..she still continued to love him wholeheartedly...Jen loves rainy days...she loves playing in therain, & whenever Jun wanted to join her, she'llalways stop him from joinin.Jun then ask her; Why don't you let me joinyou?Jen replied;Err..er..because i don't want you tofall sick.Jun then ask her again;If playing in therain will make me fall sick, then why are youstill doing it?But each time Jen will always keep quiet &smileat him...Although Jun was`t able to join her, he felthappy. To him, as long as Jen was happy, he'llbehappy as well. :)However, nothin last long... Jun soon fell foranother girl after two months. He even love thegirl more deeply den he love jenOne day, while Jun & Jen were having theirdinner , Jun told Jen that this would be theirlast dinnertogether... Jen lookedat him. She knew dat this was going to happen,butshe choose not to ask any farther...Jun thenrequested for a break up.. And Jen...sheaccepted willingly... partly because, sheknew...Jun was just like the wind...never stopat any point.That night..it was to be the last time Jun sendJenhome.. Jen kept veri quiet...although deepdownshe wanted toknow the reasons but she choose not toask. Just when Jen was about to step into thelift,Jun stop her. He said:Jen, I'm reallysorrythat i've let you down. But i'll never forgetthose days when i see you playing in therain...those are the most happy & unforgottablememories i had with youAfter listening to Jun, Jen could't help it butcried..Jun hugged her tightly. He said:Jen,There'sone question i wanted to ask you long ago...Why is it everytime when you are playing in therain,you just would`t allow me to accompany you?Jen was stunned..pausing for a few seconds,Jen replied...Because...Because i don't wish to let you know...I was crying.. >gals r owaes so thoughful<>mus owaes cherish the person bside u...<
love, vannie. (2:59 PM)
Today was like hell to me!!!=X...actualli at first satisfied wit my hair already...den after de haircut, i was like...don wanna mention liaox...=S
after cut finish liaox, uncle simon ask tat siti (new comer) to help me hair wash...ok..so i walk to de seat, sat down...den dunno why she wash wash wash, got water dripping down my neck de...den summore go into my shirt lehz...sian diao,she wash her hand hor, oso will splash water on my face de lor...haii =(
finalli wash finish liaos....i was like i just came out of the swimming pool..i was like practically swimming for the past 10 mins...10 mins is enough le...so scary..other ppl better...=X oso dunno when u suddenly 'PoP' out de..=S
later she rebond my hair...temporary one la...dunno wad she doing, go clip my hair here,clip my hair there...nvm...wadevaX...she rebond,,,,i tink take bout a whole dae de..other ppl take onli few mins...haii..i tink she spoilt my hair le..nvm..don wanna elaborate any further...=)
haii..juz read something in friendster...veh sadx...i'll post it in a while...=)
din see u for a long time already...although its only four days...=)
love, vannie. (2:44 PM)
Tuesday, August 10, 2004
haha...today is national dae...Singapore is already 39 years old lerhx...so sad =(...older by one yr again...haha
later in the evening going to daddy's office...hahax..go see the fireworks and the planes fly past...=) opposite is the national stadium onli.how can don go and catch a good view??*bleahx*=p..hahax
oh ya...how can i forget this???!!!=D i going to have a national dae baby as my cousin..=) its a boi boi..sure extremely cutez one..now auntie valerie still in the hospital...i think the baby still haven come out la =X..hahax...sekalli false alarm..=S
junnow,got a fright when i woke up..jie's fault la...got naional dae baby oso no nid to scream for me to wake up wad...=X she was screaming " bee wake up!!!auntie val got national dae baby lehx!!!!" i juz wake up mah...den blur blur =S...tot de house on fire or wad?!=x...crazie liaox..hahax =)..
jie good lor going to see the parade...FINE>>>=X~~~neva mind..my view frm daddy's office will be nicer than yours..*bleahx*=p...nevamind...
tonight's fireworks will be as nice as last night's...as usual, i'll be alone watching it...neva mind..at least we are watching the same thing under the same sky..=)
love, vannie. (2:35 AM)
Monday, August 09, 2004
ystd, got band practice at shu duan's old house[woodgrove condo]...den went to the KTV room..hahax..=)den we prac prac,some ppl hungry den dey go buy food to eat..i feeling giddy mah..den i lie on de sofa..hehex=P~stupid heng kiat wanna take jeremy's instrument...luckily i took it away in time..haha =D..he also almost took my fone to see..i dun let..=S
dey eating,den yee lu and sin yee go to de playground to play de merry go round thingie..hahax..dey so funny..mei qi and i see dem play...=X...so funny dey two..haha..going back de time yee lu pretended dat she did nothing..fakie sia=S..
dunno why suddenly everybody downstairs playing at the playground??=X...all went to play with tt merry go round..i din try =(..giddy giddy..stand dere message fel...dunno wad happen,perhaps too fast le,suddenly jeremy 'flew' frm de merry go round..hahaz..was quite funny huh??=X...i so bad..
bout 4 liddat,we go back dere..play Blue Ridge Saga & YMCA a while,den we are back down at the playground again =)..dunno wad so fun bout tt merry go round..very fun meh??...=X
tat yee lu and sin yee so bad..dey planned to throw tian ze into de pool!!!aiyox..=S..they we were all chasing him all round the condo...haii..finally all of them came back..except tian ze...haha..so scared for wad??
later after dunno how long,den he finally come back liaox..=)actually wanna leave liao..den dunno wad dey doing, tian ze was leaning against the wall,den yee lu and sin yee in front of him..=X yee lu pour water on him...waste water onli...i 'donated' my bottle of water to yee lu.=D..i tink she poured three bottles of water...so bad...=X
we left after dat...tian ze of cos have to go home straight lah...so wet le..hahax..=P after tt i go grandma house..
actualli come to think of it,mabbe without u, my life will still be filled with happiness..
juz now, went to see de fireworks..so nice man =)..how i wished it din stop...haii...so extremely beautiful..onli lasted for 5 mins..*bleahx*=p...so short de...neva mind..at least i saw...=)
love, vannie. (2:26 PM)
Saturday, August 07, 2004
todae school end early...now onli 11.49 a.m..got national dae celebrations mah..so sianx one..how i wished i was at the parade sq singing the songs..haix..all the prize presentation fault la=X~..in the end have to stand at the hall there,see them all enjoying themselves...haix..
the prize presentation took such a long time=S...had to stand there for bt half an hour..my leggy now pain liaox..=P~and tat stupid blazer...din noe wear already will so hot one...was perspiring like mad~=X..hahax..was complaining to mh..
oh yah..tat mrs tee dunno got wad kinda problem one lehx..she wanna cheer hor,like mosquito liddat..=X..ZZZ...ZZZ...in my ears summore...she ar..got gymnastics ppl go up receive award mah..siao siao de...=S
todae school finish liaos,den hafta go see tmr go whose house for rehearsal...(band perform for teachers' dae!!=D)...settle le..some of us wil go clement's house..some will go sin yee's house..=P...den he come..as i always say, see me like see ghost liddat...=X..i oso don care...not in good mood...=(.........
finallt my long awaited dae came!!!!daddy got new car mah..first time sat inside...daddy todae come school fetch me ...filian was already there liaos...stupid boi..see me neva call me..SLAP u ar..hahax..den daddy fetch yee lu to sun plaza...she you fu qi lor..can sit new car...=)
todae not a veh happie dae..i dunno..the feeling is there =)..nvm..i'll be waiting..........
love, vannie. (3:01 AM)
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