thelittlelovetoken

I can identify myself as A HAPPY SHOPPER today!
Well, I don't like shopping actually.
But today's different! (:

I spent over a hundred today, but it was alright!
Items of my needs and wants list!

1. Draw-string sling bag- $22.90
2. Black bag (for school!)- $49.90
3. Black and milky green spag tops- 2 for $24
4. Acrylic Semi-quaver Black necklace- $5

Total: $101.80!
Oh my gosh...
But I'm still elated! VERY!

I'm a happy happy girl today!

love, vannie. (11:27 PM)

boogie
Saturday, December 29, 2007

My whole mind is filled.
Lots and lots of questions.
But thank god you're here (:
I've gotten some assurance from you last night.
Just bear with me till then alright.
Thanks love (:

Bubbles misses you!
Haha :D

love, vannie. (6:05 PM)

Christmas 2007 ♥

Christmas Gathering (27th December 2007)

Christmas Day (25th December 2007)

love, vannie. (6:03 PM)

Sweet.

-you make me feel different.

It's been almost a week since I last blogged.
Alot has happened during these few days.

Sunday- Sentosa outing
Went to Sentosa with Rayner and his ex-schoolmates.
Was quite a fun day meeting and talking to new friends.
Played games and sand.
Poor Ray was buried. Haha!
Not forgetting there was rainbow!

Played night luge and skyride.
Dinner at Seah Im and Ray sent me home.
I ate stawberry sundae while walking home! Yay!

Monday- Scouring for Family's gifts
Sister and I went to Vivo and Harbourfront.
We first bought Filian's pencil case at Ripcurl.
Then we went shopping for each other's christmas present.

Bought 2 white dresses.
One from sister for x'mas and one from granny for chinese new year clothes.
I look sweet in the one I'm going to wear for CNY!
(The one that Rayner and I saw! So beautiful!)
Haha, seems like everyone loves that dress!

Bought sister a black dress and went off to Adidas.
I seriously had no idea what to get from there.
Wanted caps, but the one I wanted wasn't sold there.
So I got myself a white cotton tee with golden logo and words in the front.

Bought a belt for Dad and a silk blouse for Mum.
Bith at G2000. :D
I love Mum's silk top. Gonna borrow it one day! HA!

Sister got that big bear I wanted from Toy'R'Us from Shaun.
*Jealous!*

Played with Fika for a while at Shaun's place.
She's so adorable. The first doggie I love (:

Tuesday- Christmas Day!!
Had christmas celebraton as usual at Mama's house.
Think they need a bigger christmas tree already.
Uncle James says bigger house. Haha!

We watched the video taken 9 years back in Australia- Perth.
I laughed till I almost died watching myself so kuku in the past.
We were all once young and childish.
Not forgetting, very round too!

Then we claimed out presents from the little ones.
We 5 have retired and passed to the next batch to distribute!
Left for town to watch the floats.
Ate at Chatterbox. Christmas is always celebrated at Chatterbox (:

Wednesday- Marketing Project
Ahhh! Went to do the stupid marketing at Xavier's home.
Quite relaxed after doing what we thought we were supposed to do.
Watched Andrew and Xavier play Winning Eleven before leaving.

He sent me home.
This sweet beginning. (:

Thursday- Christmas outing with dearies
Worked 1st shift for the day.
Sister, Shaun and Filian came in for free!
Hahaha, lunched with them at Koufu.

Work was scary during the late afternoon and evening.
So many tour groups and FITs to handle.
Weiyi and I almosted fainted...

Glad that I could leave at 5.45pm.
Went to meet the guys with Filian along.
Had dinner at Fish & Co, Glasshouse.

I loved all the presents! (:
Was a nice and quiet evening. (:

Friday- Today!
Today, had macroecons project in school.
Completed what we wanted to do around 3 plus.
Left school and met the guys.
Waited for a while and we both went to Plaza Sing.

Decided not to watch movie cos of the timings. :(
Ate at Thai Express with Fyshie working.

Sent me home and he went off to chalet.
Oh great. Something weird just happened accidentally.
I was so shy...
loves.

love, vannie. (1:14 AM)

messy days.. tsk.
Saturday, December 22, 2007

IOS was in a mess yesterday.

The disruption of water supply at Imbiah was terrible.

It caused the washrooms to be closed and the malfunction of the chiller.

Ah, no aircon in the end.

I almost died while roving.

Luckily I managed to feel that minimal amount of wind.

Oh my, it was scary.

And there were so many people for a Friday!

Waited for Rayner and went to talk to people at SOS.

Haha, they're nice colleagues!

Jonathan even offered to let me in..

Ha, but it was alright.

Both of us went to eat at some kinda Ramen place.

Ha, first time I watched Rayner cry.

Went to see the bear bear shop and left.

Ah, I was telling him:

If someone were to bring me to customise my own bear, I'll definitely fall in love with that person! It's like.. indescribable.

Saw Jasmine on the MRT.

She was at Sentosa for a church amazing race thing.

Haha, I never did that in Sentosa before!

I was very very tired yesterday.

Even as I am typing now, I feel really drowsy.

And I hate my uncomfy tummy.

Faster go away..

love, vannie. (8:24 PM)

love work!
Wednesday, December 19, 2007

I loved work today.
Everyone just talked like we knew each other for a long time.
Cos we don't usually see each other.
So it just felt great (:

Did quite a lot of talking on walkie today!
I actually got tongue-tied at one point of time.
Was so funny lar.

Bought Tuna wrap from Subway for lunch.
Not bad ya. I love wraps!
Go try if you haven't!!

Stayed a while after work to watch them practise YMCA.
For the staff gethering, Retro Night.
Nah, I'm not going. Projects! :/

Then comes the beach picnic Sheila organised.
Don't think I'll be able to make it also.
Shucks. I hate my projects!
I can't do the things I wanna do! :(

Anyways, today is definitely not my day with guys.
At first, I got winked by this retail guy.
Then I got this tour guide who almost did sth I never expected.
I was shocked. And very afraid.
While going home in the MRT, another two guys kept staring at me.
I really mean staring. Gosh.
For goodness sake, what wrong things did guys eat today?

love, vannie. (11:36 PM)

Long dayyyyyyy!
Monday, December 17, 2007

Coincidently, My Dad and Xavier are arriving in Thailand today!
Ha! Andrew and I got to the airport to send Xavier off this morning.
Met him at 8am! So freaking early! HA!

Then we talked while they had breakfast.
His first time taking plane, so the fat and I were like telling him this and that.
Lols! Hope he's alright and not screaming! ;D

He went to meet his family, so Andrew and I went off.
Took quite a while to decide where to go, I've got psycho proj in the afternoon.
Some people were filming in the airport station...
Andrew realised I can entertain myself without anyone talking to me (:
That's quite true.

Went to Plaza Sing and Cathay to check out the timings for Enchanted!
Whoo! Like finally can watch it! :D
Alot of weird stuffs popped out during the journey.
Not literally, but as in in the conversations.
It was damn funny and cheeky la.

Walked around PS to see if I could get anything for the wrappings.
Saw a few choices, but I searched till we were almost late!
Lucky lucky. The I am Legend trailer was showing. Hees.

Enchanted is really nice.
Very sweet and romantic.
Was kinda sleepy due to the lack of lightings in cinemas.
I just wanted to rest my head. And yup, it's sweet, thanks!
Haha.

Waited for 518 to get back to school.
Met Kailee and June to draw the scenes out.
Was funny la, her human (:
Finished in 1 hour and left school.

Talked to the fat all the way to the interchange.
He's scary when he's sleepy.
Better be careful!

love, vannie. (11:51 PM)

straight ahead.
Saturday, December 15, 2007

It's time to look up straight ahead.
No, it's not a wise idea to wander around.
Cos' I may just fall deep into the pit just round the corner again.
And I don't reckon I want that to happen.

I'm feeling great.
Just a little intimidated.

Okay, enough of that.

Had a long talk with that fat last night as usual (:
And we realised quite a number of things.
Like how cute we are, how people accused us both.. HOHOHO!
The 2nd convo caught me awake.
I was actually dozing off to lalaland already.

Somehow, I like late night talks.
Just that I didn't get to do it in the past.

Anyways, woke up this morning to a text.
Ha, it was just funny.
Now I know how shocking it felt.

Journey to work was kinda eew..
I was listening to alot of songs and pondering alot.
'What if 's kept surfacing my mind.
Current and past.

A random thing bothering me:
I'd been through too much in the past.
Just when I'd forgotten him, he came back trying to step into my life again.
No, I once loved you. But not anymore.

Alright.
Work was kinda scary today.
Rain rain go away!
I was a little drenched with the leaking shelter.
I had to mark tickets at that pathetic place as there were just too many guests.
They flooded IOS like the rain.
But I thought I did things my way several times today. :x
Bad Vannie...

Oh ya! We're all wearing Santa's hats now!
So adorable I tell you! :D

Have to thank Dexter for his help.
He's not that quiet or scary now.
Just felt he's kinda changed.
Even waved to me goodbye. Haha.

I'm smiling, yet afraid.

love, vannie. (11:21 PM)

Smilies :)
Friday, December 14, 2007

Alright alright.

The mid-sems are like finally over.

Oh great!

Yesterday was a really long day for me.

I gave up on F&B after sitting in the lec hall for 35 minutes.

I never ever walk out on my papers. This is the first.

I just left. That's it!

Went for bowling after that before meeting the rest of the class for steamboat.

Amanda didn't go, only the five :)

I hurt my thumb's nail.

Then we played darts and photohunt! Ha, so fun.

Went for lunch with Rayner and Fishie.

Xavier and Andrew left for Kovan.

Wasn't planning to go for steamboat initially.

So we all got separated.

I got this text from Xavier telling me they'll be going.

Then I thought, maybe I should just go.

The three of us went to Toys'R'Us!

Oh my! All my childhood memories revived.

I was so blissed there!

Rayner forced me to put this cone on!

Met up with Rayner's friends, Daryl, Timothy, Rahman and Adriel.

Monfort guys.

They're reaction to "cong cong" is all the same.

Quite funny. Haha!

We all went down together.

Fishie and I went to Bugis.

Ray and co went to Marina.

Andrew and Xavier came to fetch us.

No, both of us didn't eat. We had our fill already.

But it was alright watching them eat and laugh.

Not all were there. Only 10 of them.

Xavier and Fysh left for their partner.

The rest went for some Topshop shopping.

I was feeling really uncomfortable.

Not particularly happy.

I wasn't alright. But I wanted to.

The people wanted to head down to the arcade.
Oh my, the place I fear most.

Stayed for less than 5 minutes and ~~told~~ Andrew I wanted to leave. :(

(Alright, amendment spotted by Andrew, should be: he asked if I wanted to leave..)

Then we left. I felt much better.

Ha, I realised something Andrew is scared of.

When Vanessa gets quiet.

Cos I don't usually shut myself. :)

Oh yea, he sent me home and we talked alot.

Even with texts to Rayner.

I was really happy at that time.

Somehow, I liked this picture (:

Bought an apple pie at Admiralty.

Boarded 965 and got off at my stop.

While Andrew had to wait yet another 30 mins to get home.

Thanks 'my dear'.

I know he likes it when I call him this. HA!

love, vannie. (10:32 PM)

sweet

1. Who was your last text from?
Rayner

2. Where was your default picture taken?
At home? haha

3. What's your FULL name?
Lee Hui Shan Vanessa

4. Your current status?
Online

5. What is your current mood?
Not bad. just a little loney after they'd left.

6. How old are you?
Sweet 17

7. If you could go back in time and change something, you would...
Tell my loved ones how much i love them.

8. What's your favorite color?
PINK! ha!

9. Ever had a near death experience?
Maybe. I don't wanna know.

10. Something you do a lot?
Laugh, alot recently.

11. Who can you tell ANYTHING to?
Andrew, like seriously.

12. Name someone with the same birthday as you.
Shakespear?

13. If you could have one superpower what would it be?
HA! I'll make sure everyone knows it when I'm thinking of them.

14. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Height, tall please..

15. Favorite season?
Winter! I want to touch snow...

16. Do you still watch kiddymovies or tv shows?
Oh yea! Sometimes. Tom and Jerry!

17. What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
Nothing..

18. What language do you speak?
English, Chinese and pig language- to my pet pig. ;)

19. Describe your life in two words.
Hard. Lovely.

20. Do you have any tattoos?
Nah, I wont get one even.

21. Who was the last person you hung out with?
Hmm, Andrew and Xavier.

22. What are you thinking about right now?
What time to wake for work tomorrow.

23. What should you be?
Myself.

24. Who was the last person that made you upset?
Some guy that i just go to know last night.
It was scary. Maybe I should have just told fatfat.

25. What are you listening to?
Some little guy screaming. Argh!

26. Do you like working in the yard?
I've got no yard to work in! haha.

27. Who is with you?
Everyone in my heart.

28. Do you act different around the person you like?
Oh, definitely. Kinda awkward.

29. What is your natural hair color?
Pure Black!

30. Last time you were really happy?
Last night when heading home (:

love, vannie. (9:52 PM)

Buzzing Bee :D
Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Oh! Bee Movie is so endearingly cute!
Endearing cos I have an affectionate relation. (:

And not forgetting to mention the female lead has the same name as me!
The coincidence was... a little disturbing.
Vanessa Bloom dreams to be a florist and is one.
And me? I dreamt to be a florist when I was young..
Hoho.

Christmas is coming yet I have not done any shopping.
Not any with Mummy at all, which was a routine for me in the past.
Like I'd say, everything's "in the past". Everything's changed.

Had econs yesterday and POM today.
Both papers just got me so disappointed.
I knew I couldn't concentrate when studying.
I knew the mistakes before I handed my paper up.
But yet, time did not permit me to change.

Time. Everything's got to do with time.
I hate it.

Went for Mac breakfast with them. All were present (:
The last time I ate Mac breakfast was with them too.
The day we stayed over in school to finish up CSk1.

Then the four younger ones went to watch Bee Movie.
Played with this baby on the bus. :D
I needed some time out to relax my mind.
Too much had been going thru over and over again.
And the movie did bring me off to another place.
The colourful film was lovely.

Saw this Little Miss Sunshine and Tickles tote bag.
Unfortunately, the price did not suit with the bag.
Not worth. But they're adorable.

Rayner waited with me for the bus as he waited for his friend to buy boxers together.
It's funny to me when it comes to boxers.
Ha ha. Guys will be guys..

Chance upon the unspeakable thing.

Public Speaking. (will load the rest again..)

love, vannie. (12:36 AM)

When it's really saddening.
Monday, December 10, 2007

I yearn to return back to Heaven's arms.

Thanks to those who showed care and concern as I go through this period.
Thank you Rayner for your offer, I know I'll be fine alone through my journey home.
Thank you Andrew for your caring texts and attempts to cheer me up.
Thank you Fysh for your concern.
Thank you Daryl for your empathy.

love, vannie. (5:26 PM)

Mom gave me some advice just now while I was studying.
And I talked to Andrew about it.
I guess what both said were right.
Mom's words woke me up again.

Well, I just have to be hard up when facing this.
I know everyone's tried and tried.
But has anyone ever wondered if I'd been trying to find a time out?
It's so stressful to see those messages.
For I have really no idea what to reply.

Then again, I don't want to disappoint anyone.
But how to when I don't have any choice but to say no?
We all have our lives to live.

And especially so when mine is so different.

It's so frustrating I just lost interest.
Again and again.

Honestly, I don't see myself enjoying when I go for gatherings.
I feel like a stranger and very left out.
Not because I never open myself up.
We just don't have common topics.

Maybe I've just disappointed you guys too much already.
Maybe you guys shouldn't have placed too much hope on me.
Maybe we should understand each other's differences more.
Or rather, my difference from you girls.

I still feel you guys in my hearts.
If you ever wondered...

Daryl said something which got me thinking...
he said:
they should be encouraging you.
thats what friends are for.
for comfort.
encouragement.
love.
even a getaway to ease your troubles.
from friends, the word 'stress' shouldn't exist at all.

love, vannie. (1:40 AM)

Wednesday, December 05, 2007

30 November 2007 (: