thelittlelovetoken

okay okay.
tmr school's gonna reopen.
and that marks the start of focus study.

yah. and sth else.
yh's hospitalised.
i dunnoe if xf's exggerating.
anyways, i dun really care.

i dunnoe. seems like no feeling towards her.
if i become friends with her again,
its simply because i sympatise with her.
not that i forgive her.
whatever.

the future is so blur...

love, vannie. (1:34 PM)

Thursday, June 22, 2006

hmms. yesterday was a bad day for me?
i think i must stop helping my sis lie to my mum.
i was so ridiculous to help her.
i was her accomplice for 2 days.
but i'm not anymore! haha

she's so heartless!
seems like i don't have a sis anymore.
i dun want her.
i only have one sibling, and that's all.
the one who was once my sis is now gone.
I DON'T HAVE ANY SISTER!

so disappointed with her yesterday.
long story though.
well, i guess.
its just fate.

mummy said filian and i are her heart and soul.
she said she thank god for having the two of us,
and that she's very fortunate.
i love you mummy! :)

was so ~~touched~~ when she said all those.
i sneaked into the room to cry.
lols. bet anyone would do that. =]]

oh. tmr going out with sisters club.
i can't wait huhs.

ystd mh saw jelly at causeway with royden and ziheng.
how i wished i were her!
them i can see him. lols.

i miss him so muchies!
i wanna see him!!! hahas.

love, vannie. (4:11 AM)

Sunday, June 18, 2006

hahas. i'm still alone..
wonder what i'm going to do later.
hmms. i dunnoe. just woke up at 10.

oh. i cant wait to go out!
papa's going for golf tournament tmr.
so its another day of staying at hm!
yah yah, they'll only be back tmr...

lalalas. i miss my friends! and jelly!
i think i'm ~~crazy~~.
i was listening to my mp3 and thinking abt my friends.
suddenly, i wanted to cry! lols.

okays. i noe i'm crazy..
hoho. and i love my hair!! hahas

sometimes i wonder who i am to them.
am i just someone to confide in only when they have probs?
or am i someone whom they treat me for who i really am?
who knows?
only them.
and maybe heaven too.
but definitely not me. :)

love, vannie. (2:14 PM)

Saturday, June 17, 2006

heys heys! i'm alone at hm again.
=x why why why hurrs?
aiyo. my bro went to my uncle's place to stay.
my sis went to foreign bodies camp.
hais. i cried when i knew they were going.
=x

hmms. okays. so i'm gonna be alone at hm till sunday.
haiyo. i haven done that stupid oral thingy.
dunnoe where to get the recorder also.
i'm dead meat! lols.

missing jelly for this whole holiday.
see him now online, also ~~dare not~~ chat with him.
i've no courage, definitely none.
i'm the useless one yah. (:

let me tell y'all why i'm so useless:
ytsd, my mummy asked me to cook a pot of plain porridge.
and told me to look after the fire.
i came online, and forgot all abt it!
gosh! and everythg overflowed.

at that moment, i thought the porridge and the pot were ruined.
i cried so hard, feeling so guilty.

but when mummy came hm,
she said the porridge is edible and...
the pot is not ruined!!

i was like, ohmygod! are you sure?
i dun wanna die eating the porridge!
haha. yeah, and it was edible laa.

watched world cup last nite.
england vs trinidad & tobago.
was kinda boring in the front part.
but at the 83rd min, crouch scored one for england!
hoho~ and gerrad scored another during the additional time, 92nd min.
england won!

lalalas. i slept at 2, and woke up at 9.
so sleepy now...

i wanna go out!!! xD
i miss jelly loadies!

love, vannie. (4:31 AM)

Friday, June 16, 2006

i miss my long hair and my hamsters.

yah, was just a brief blog ystd.
i cut cut cut my hair till so short.
i didn't expect to cut till like that.
but hai hao la.
always so long, very hot de!
its much refreshing now!

okays. i dreamt of jelly so many times the nite before.
he just kept appearing. lols.
like ~~ghost~~ like that.
there he goes, and here he comes again!

hahas. i wanna go out with sisters club.
say hao tuesday le.
but dunnoe go where. lols.

seems like not going out with mh they all le.
xf also cannot. i also cannot.
so mh say dun go le. nvm laa.

next time we go to the beach suntan.
you all always say wanna go.
but i think i'm gonna hide in the shade.
hahas.you all can soak up the sun yourselves.
i'm tanned enough!! hahas. x)

my hair now like not long not short.
hahas, my ponytail is now so short!
thought of cutting shorter.
hahas. but too late already. nvm laa.
you all will just get a ~~shock~~ of your lives!

love, vannie. (9:08 AM)

Thursday, June 15, 2006

hoho. just reached home!
and i cut my hair! haha
so short now..
sobbies!!! =[

love, vannie. (12:25 PM)

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

ohana means family. family means nobody gets left behind.
-lilo and stich movie.

hahas. stayed at home for whole day today.
gonna watch world cup later on.
south korea and some other cty.

oh!!! i miss jelly so so so much.
i'd made it a pt to fold a heart everyday.
with straws, i mean.
yah. so, the bottle's filling up... :)

hmms. saw jelly's msn nick.
he changed his name. to uselessboy.
where got? not useless laa.
useful! hahas.

he always say must think positively,
but always look down on himself.
aiyo. so diffficult to understand.
girls are easier hurrs. haha =]]

okays, gonna go bathe bathe now!
lalalas. missing my jelly! =)

love, vannie. (10:31 AM)

SURVEY TIME!

A - Available: yes
A - Age: 16
A - Annoyance: smokers, liars, flirts, seflish ppl like yh, yh and the B's

B - Best friend(s): fel, mh, wy, lex, xf, jk
B- Band(s): rssw
B - Birthday: 23 april 1990

C - Crush: Jelly
C - Country: Singapore
C - Cat: eek

D- Dead pet's name: hammy tammy cammy
D - Dad's name: daniel
D - Dogs: i'm scared of them. but they're cute!
E - Easiest person to talk to: fel

E - Eggs: anything
E - Email: vanessalee_90@hotmail.com
F - Favorite colour(s): pink white orange
F - Food: xD
F - Foreign language: french, korean?

G - Gummy bears or worms?: bears!!!
G - God: (:
G - Good times: when i see jelly! :) and not forgetting my friends!

H - Hair colour: blackie BLACK
H - Height: 1.59-1.60
H - Happy: hmm.. of course!

I - Ice cream: strawberry!
I - Instrument: clarinet
I - Idol: none

J - Jewelry: lotsa lotsa!
J - Job: student
J - Jokes: haha

K - Kids: adore cute kids
K - Karate: i almost learn!
K - Kung Fu: eew

L - Love or lust: Love
L - Longest car ride: genting trip
L - Lipstick or chopstick?: chopstick

M - Milk flavour: banana, honeydew
M - Mother's name: freda
M - Movie last watched: The omen

N - Number of siblings: 2
N - Name of siblings: vivian filian
N - Name: vanessa

O - One wish: to do well in o's
O - One phobia: height?
O - Otter pop: huh?

P - Parents, are they married or divorced: Married
P - Part of your appearance you like best: face shape? =]]
P - Part of your personality you like best: loyalty

Q - Quick or slow?: s l o w
Q - Queer or straight?: queer's a bad bad word!
Q - Queen or king?: queen

R - Reason to smile: happy!
R - Reality TV show: antm, pj runway
R - Right or left: right

S - Song last heard: stick with you
S - Series: erm..
S - Sex: female

T - Time you woke up: 10am
T - Time Now: 11.36am
T - Time for bed: 12am

U - Unknown: my future
U - Unicorns: lovely!
U - U are: friendly. easy to get along with

V- Vegetable you love: baby kailan.
V - Vegetable you hate: onion, garlic, ginger! eek!
V - View on politics: i dunnoe

W - Worst habit: messing up my place, crying!
W - What's up: nothing

X - X-rays: huh?
X - X-rated: lols.

Y- You have something to say?: hoho~ i love jelly!
Y - Year it is now: 2006.
Y - Yellow: nice

Z - Zoo animal: white horse!
Z - Zodiac: horse
Z - Zoolander: hees?

love, vannie. (2:41 AM)

Friday, June 09, 2006

just get lost! the sight of you makes me wanna puke!

-to the person who thinks everyone in the world loves her. yucks!

yah! that is for the most irritating person in the world!

blah. she diaoed me today.

and i found out that she blamed jk.

what the hell.

i nv even talk to jk lar!

stupid woman! always anyhow talk nonsense!

lalalas. i HATE her

and that's it!

i shall talk abt sth nice though. haha.

jelly so irritating today.

keep using the small bits of paper to throw at me.

crazy jelly. i was talking to clement.

but jelly's so cute!

my eyes met his so many times today!

haahaas x)

got the pics already.

family photo in 8R size.

so nice hurr.

HAPPIE FAMILY!

love, vannie. (6:24 AM)

Saturday, June 03, 2006

i can't understand why she finds it SO hard to open her mouth to just say "happy birthday".

lols. today is meihwa's b'day.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEIHWA!

haha. such a wonderful day.

i hope she likes it! hees :)

okay, today, the plan went ~~quite~~ smoothly.

except for some hiccups.

but mh was still surprised. lols.

she didn't expect lor.

all thanks to our near-perfect acting!

today cut the cake then eat eat eat.

forgot to feed her! hoho.

and that ~~bitch~~ sat far far away.

she probably couldn't resist the delicious looking cake!

went to causeway with fel for lunch.

actually wanted to watch movie de.

but i also dunnoe jinger they all.

so i'd rather back out. haha =x

when we leaving the cinema place,

guess who we saw?! =x

the two innova jc couple!

fel was like "oh!"

haha. we were still saying if we would see them.

hahas, behave yourselves!=x

went hm, and slept for nearly two hours.

befor i went to sun plaza, called fel.

girl arh, we're always there for you kays? :)

left hse around 7.00.

whees- went to eat with mummy and granny.

granny so cute. nv take 962 to sp before.

on the bus, listened to mp3.

[because of you]

kept thinking of him. hees :)

oh! i bought ice-cream again! lols.

hoho. i'm gonna eat it later.

wonder how would it taste if i put jelly and ice-cream tgt.

sweet! xD

jelly was ~~once~~ my best friend.

love, vannie. (1:59 PM)

Thursday, June 01, 2006

i've stopped believing that anything in life

is "as simple as that".

-memoirs of a geisha

was having a bad nite sleep.

cried for like many times,

before i could go to sleep.

~~terrible~~ life =x

was dreaming abt the lucky draw thing.

then suddenly mummie called.

i was still like blur blur,

when she said we got another prize.

lols. couldn't believe. haha.

received fel's message last nite.

she sounded like she's very confused.

kind of worried.

i just told her to think positive.

that's wad jelly taught me.

seriously, i think he's so right.

so i told felicia. :)

sometimes we have to accept thgs.

many thgs do not happen the way we want it.

we'll just have to take it and think in a positive way.

it doesn't hurt to take a tiny bit of time,

just to think thgs out.

sensitivity and rashness could lead to

~~unhappy~~ endings.

-this is what i concluded. (:

i can't wait for tmr!

i'm going to see the sisters club

and my dear friends.

most importantly, jelly.

lols. going to have breakfast with sister club.

at admiralty mac. hees :)

i want school! xD

everyone lives for a purpose.

love, vannie. (3:46 AM)

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