thelittlelovetoken

I'm super sians now.
We have to do project and that has to be done on like 11 of May. Not long, 'cos orange has to work on most days, xavier has his girlfriend and rayner, I don't know. Soccer maybe? Jacqueline and I are more accomodating. We are single girls, that's why... (:

Yesterday was a fun and busy day! Weets~ After lecture, about 10 of our class people with 2 of xavier's friends went to watch the movie, 200 pounds beauty. It was so touching and humourous I tell you! Nice nice, you guys should go watch it! Highly recommended! (: Michelle and I cried like crazy. :x

To waste our time away till 5:30, we did quite a few things:
1. The other girls spent a long time in the toilet. (I didn't go)
2. Andrew, orange and dennis went to play pool, while...
3. The rest went to eat at Long John's.
4. Waited for Andrew to finish his food..
5. Everyone went to take neoprint! (the guys were being "forced")

Then we became late! And had to rush rush rush! Hahah. Michelle even suggested changing our shorts on the bus! LOL. We didn't of course. Heh, so we took the bus back and met a few of our class people at the entrance of business school. They were running away from the Orientation. Yep, but our group of ppl who went for the movie, still went for it la! Haha!

Yep, at first K07 wanted to stay as a group so much that we "begged" the OGLs to let us be the together to form the "K07 group". We even lied to them. But after the squirrel game, we were all separated! :( Yep, oh it was sad. I kept hearing that "Oh it was sad" song-cheer yesterday.. The Titanic one. LOL!

During the squirrel game K07 stayed as a class. And the tress stood in two lines with the squirrel squatting in the middle. Yep, OUR PLAN! So when 'fire' was shouted, only the left side move to the right. Then 'earthquake', the right side and squirrels move. Heh.. Yeah, and I was "moved", literally, by someone when I didn't hear the signal. :x Yep, we exhange places, that's why.

After being separated, I got into a group with two of my primary 6 classmates. Rene and Seow Peng. Yep, so we played games and all. There was this Ben guy who was kinda funny. We were not supposed to talk. But we had to show our birth dates to each other with our hands so we can arrange ourselves from youngest to oldest.. Yeah, I repeatedly showed the numbers to him, but he just kept looking at me. Then I gave up. LOL! I don't even know which class he is from.. I didn't bothered. But he reminds me of the singer, Wilber Pan.

Locke, was my group name! Haha, we were one of the last to reach the amphitheatre. So the people there were like singing: Why are we waiting, Why are we waiting...
We faster go take our shoes and socks off. We were playing water games. Yup, we had to throw water bombs at the OGLs. So evil. :x But, hey! We had so much fun then! (:

Went back to the lecture room for some refreshments and got out LRM waterbottles and towels. I actually got a blue towel, but luckily jackson was nice enough to exchange with me! (: Heh! So yep, I got a PINK! My Favourite! :D

Then I went to change and we girls went our separate ways with dennis and orange at the bus stop. And I met seowpeng and her two friends, jiahui and audrey. (: We took the 969 bus home! My first time going home with friends! Heh! They all alighted at Yishun. Heh, I reached home and watched The Fast and the Furious on Star Movies. I was so so so tired. :x

Today, I went to Causeway Point with Mammy. They had the Giordano sales there, so I went to take a look. Yep, take a look till I got a pair of drop waist bermudas, a pair of three quarts and a red long sleeves. All for only $36! Haha! I used my own money. Heh, so I feel happy happy happy! (: So cheap! Both bottoms costs only $15 and the top, $6. LOL!

Was discussing the project thingy just now, till jacqueline, xavier and I thought that orange was angry. But he said he wasn't, even put smiley face. :x LOL. Or , well at least we thought, and we changed to Tuesday instead of Monday. Now everyone's happy (: Not sure about rayner. Let's just pray hard that he can make it on Tuesday. :x

Time check: 0258 am.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANNY!

love, vannie. (5:58 PM)

Friday, April 27, 2007

Ya-yee! I'm having school tomorrow! (:
I don't know if I'm going with Carmen and some others to watch the 200 pounds beauty movie. I think I'll go with the majority and see if the others want to. Anyway, I have nothing to do for the 4 to 5 hours...

Pappy's fetching me to school! Heh! Pappy has fetched me for.. let's see.. 3 times! (: And I have gone to school for 5 days. So that makes a remainder of 2 days that I went to school myself. The difference in the timing is quite alot. It's like 45 mins to 1 hour difference. Yup, so I'd rather Pappy fetch me. Heh! :D

I'm so tired nowadays that I don't even think about the weekends. Especially when I'm like celebrating my birthday this Sunday. I don't think about it la. Maybe sometimes.. All I think about now is more of a "what am I going to do tomorrow?" stuffs. I feel like a busy person.

Everyday on my journey home, I'll never fail to ask myself these questions:
- What time does school starts tomorrow?
- What time do I have to reach school?
- What time do I need to leave house?
- What time do I need to wake up?
- What time do I need to sleep?
- How many hours of sleep am I going to get?
So on and so forth...

So life has become more of a timeline for me.. Everything is got to do with time time time. I feel like i'm competing with time. Even during sleep, I think about time. It scares me at times...

Nevertheless, I'm still happy. I'm glad that I chose the poly route. I still think it suits me better. (: Whether I go to a university or not doesn't matter so much to me anymore, (though I still very much want to get into one) I just want to do well and not let myself down. I'm still happy (:

love, vannie. (1:33 PM)

Thursday, April 26, 2007

1K07 Birthday celebration for me! (: also for xiuping!

Orientation (:

Not forgetting my dearies whom I've been missing and missing and missing... :(

♥ loves (:

love, vannie. (4:43 PM)

I have NO school tomorrow.
And that alone can make me cry out for JOY! (sounds like i'm crying out for lex's niece!) Okay, actually I like school, because of my class! And I really don't wanna miss any days. But, I'm too dead tired to think about how bored I'm gonna be at home tomorrow. Yeah, so I have mixed feelings about not needing to go to school. I need sleep sleep sleep. (:

Okay okay! I'm like having lectures and only one kind of tutorial this week. So I am still abit of slacky. But I like Introduction to Hospitality and Tourism. The lecturer whom we call Pras, is so cool! Well, he played music for us before and durng lecture ya!

Jie jie just gave me a packet of jellybeans she bought from school. (:

Back to school.. Yep, met the class early today to go look around at the CCA booths. And I filled my names in quite a few. So, here it goes:
TENNIS, BADMINTON, ARCHERY, DRAGONBOAT.

Actually I joined the rest for the sake of joining. TENNIS is still my love okay. So yeah, if I don't get through the trails for school team, I'm gonna join the PDP thingy for beginners! HAHA! Well, it's $80 for 10 sessions. A few of us signed up for tennis, but not sure if they're going for the trails. Cos it starts at 6pm and we end school at 12pm on Thursdays. So I don't know where exactly I'm going then. Maybe I'll go home to collect my racket! (:

Ohh! I'm so happy today! Cos 2 people says I'm enthusiastic! YAY! HAH. Preeti was like, "I finally found someone whom I can go crazy with!" Haha! See people, I'm not as boring, serious and quiet like you might think I am ya?

Sometimes, I think it's just the time for me to SHUT UP, so I keep really quiet. Yeh, so BEWARE!! I can be super- enthu! (:

After IntHT lecture, the 9 girls, went to eat while the rest of the class went off. So there were Jasmine, Joanne, Amanda, Evelyn, Cristal, Preeti, Fysh, Jacqueline and ME! Hah. Such a big group. But that's cos we click well with each other. Went to Design School for their Western Food. For lunch, we went to IT and AS's air-conditioned canteen. *so jealous* Heh heh. The class is always hungry. LOL!

I just met a pervert on msn. And I had to block and delete him. I was really scared outta my wits. Luckily I was chatting with Andrew. If not I don't know what to do. Cos for one, I don't know how to block the person. Secondly, I was shocked. So I asked Andrew, "What do you do when you meet a pervert on msn?" Then he was like, "Block la!" :x

Omg, I sounded so stupid. I guess I just stunned, so I didn't really know what to do. I mean, usually, I would just add people. But when they start doing nasty stuffs, I start to delete them.

It's scary how vulnerable girls are. Some really fall prey to these low creeps! And I pity them somehow. :(

♥ LOVES! (:

love, vannie. (4:15 PM)

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
I'm really happy today!

1) I'm happy my dearies remembered and also wished me Happy Birthday! And also including: clement, eileen, xiaofang, yihui, kenneth, junhao, yeongyuan, joonkiat, andrew, carmen and pearlina. Well, at least people bothered to remember my birthday! (:

2) I'm happy that my classmates gave me a birthday surprise this afternoon! I mean like my brand new classmates you know.. I was really touched when they carried the cake out and sang the birthday song for me at the Tampines Mall food court, without me knowing or suspecting anything. I was totally stunned! Yep, and that made me smile for the whole day.

3) I'm happy we sticked as one. Every single one of my classmates were there, not one less. It's just weird you see. Even all the guys were there. Yep, and we took photos of me taking the cake with the whole class and also ate the cake at the open space at Tampines mall. Then the whole class of 23 went to the arcade and we watched some of them play for a while. And when we decided to go back to school...

The girl's played the oh-ya-pei-ya-som game to determine which 4 girls get to sit in Edison's car. And the four girls are... Xiuping, Carmen, Michelle and Me! Hahas. We were like so excited to have a friend and classmate driving a car. So cool! :D

Carmen and Michelle pointing at Edison. (:

Carmen, Michelle, Me! (:

Edison driving.

So Carmen and Michelle kept asking him loads of questions on the way back to school. Haha! And we took pictures too! The rest of the class had to take the bus back and arrived only 30 minutes later than us! Heh!

Yep, and the whole class met again and went for lecture. Actually I expected the class to be separated from each other and having everyone sit with their own cliques. But! My class sat together! Everyone just mixed around, girls and boys, but we still sat as a class. And for that I'm happy again.

After lecture, our WHOLE class waited for each other and went to the library to collect the lecture notes TOGETHER!! Okay, it's like the first day of school only. At the printing place, we can only see people in groups of 3s to 5s collecting their notes. But ours was a class of 23! It's amazing how we can do that ya! Hehs! (:

Once again, we waited for everyone outside the library (some who took the lift were slower) and that was to bid our classmates goodbye! I was still wondering what we were doing there. Yup! We bidded farewell and all of us left! (: And I'm happy again! (: I love my class! 1K07's so united!

Even the cargo lift we took after tutorial fits the 23 of us nicely. And it's SO just nice. Hahs. No one more person could fit inside. (:

4) I learned many special things about my classmates today:
- Orange is half-korean! (Yay! I can learn korean from him!)
- Edison is 21 and also drives a BMW! (And I sat in it!)
- Lay can speak Japanese! (He's from Myanmar!)
-Andrew is the last to wish me Happy Birthday at 11:59 pm. (According to him, I must let the whole world know this!)

5) Daddy bought me a metallic watch from FOSSIL for my birthday! Hahas! I like it so much ya! Haha! (: He came in and put the present on my table when I was asleep. Heh heh! :D

6) Last night, I told Felicia how UNSPECIAL my birthday felt this year, it felt like nothing. And she said it IS something. It's about me being seventeen! And I would say she was right. At first, I just felt so lost and all... But she proved me wrong (:

This birthday is really something, with people still remembering my birthday and also my classmates celebrating my birthday for me on the first day of school. (:

7) Lastly, I'm really happy today! Thanks to my dearies who made me smile since the beginning of the day, my dearest family, 1K07 peeps, and those who wished me a Happy Birthday! :)

♥ Loves!

love, vannie. (2:59 PM)

Monday, April 23, 2007

Freshmen Orientation 2007 (19 & 20 April 2007)

First Day:
I reached super super early as Pappy fetched me to school. Reached the TCC (Temasek Convention Centre) at as early as 07:45 am. The registration only starts at 08:30 am. But luckily they started the registration earlier, if not i'll be bored to death waiting...

So I went in... And I was the first in my class! Yay! Ooh, my class is 1K07. Yep, I'm once again in the 7th class, any idea why? I don't know either.. Heh! Yep, and I met my SLs- Weiying, Zack and Lionel. Lionel reminds me of Junyang. Okays, then people started strolling in.

I sat there and kept talking to the SLs, well I was bored la. Everyone was so late! LOL! Yeah. and they had the intro to TP, the director talking and stuffs. And finaly we had cheers! So fun the cheers! Funny seniors I have in Temasek Business School! And TP has school song, and one handsign song! YAY!

Then we went for the ice breaker games.. I remembered most of my classmates' names from the games we played. And we had lunch together in the circle with the SLs in the middle.. After lunch, we went to one of the lecture rooms for some interaction time with the seniors. They were really funny ya!

We moved to the sports hall for MASS DANCE! I danced with my classmate, Dennis. Yeah, girl-boy dance. I like this part of the day most! The song we danced to was so cute la! Haha! And then we danced danced danced! It was really so fun lah! And one of my very rare times holding a guy's hand?! OMG.

Then they had the tuggie-of war. And the CP's won! I mean like the SLs and Freshies all lost to the CMs and CPs lo. We are younger, yet weaker. It just doesn't sound right. LOL! Ooh! And HTM won the cheering title.. Just because the HHHTM... all the way, and they got it! No fair. My LRM lost it by ONE vote! Sad la..

Then finally we had de-brief and we left. Was seriously very tired at that time. So I went home, bathe, eat, then SLEEP! Bliss! (:

Second Day:
Hmms, I met the girls at the entrance of TP in the morning before going into the lecture room. Yep, so we went in togrther, but LATE! Hahs! And we got our YELLOW T-shirts! Yay! The business school T-shirt! Heh.

The Zack ah. When he throw the T-shirts to the people behind or beside me, the target seems to be me more often than them! Hahs, cos the T-shirts always almost end up hitting me.. LOL. So he was kinda paiseh after that. Haha!

I look NICE NICE NICE in my yellow business tee! Yay! I was so happy ya? Yellow brings out my tan complexion. (: So the whole business school were clad in YELLOW! So cool with everyone wereing the same! (:

Hehe. met up with our course manager and she talked about the rules and stuffs. I was like trying hard not to fall asleep in front of her. It was boring la. And something that amused me and kept me awake was her dress. Somehow, The bottom of her dress is like cut into thick stripes till her knees. And now, think of an octopus and that'll be what she looked like. Seriously.. (:

Had tea break and then went up to meet out Care Person, CP. He was okay la. And for some reason that I really don't know, I was made the Assistant Class Rep. Not like I'm popular with the class or what. That Orange just kept insisting on me being the assistant class rep. Yep, cos the Orange is the Class Rep, he had the right to choose. But why me? Got our Matriculation Card and stuffs. (The SLs were trying to amuse us by doing funny acts outside the class through the glass panels on the doors!) Haha! :D

We proceeded to the stadium place and had our lunch there. Then the Olympiad thingy started and we started cheering for business school. Zack passed me the clappers, and I clapped till my hands ached. :x Haha!

Then the whole TP moved to the Bedok reservoir where we had the dargonboat race and cheerleading competition there! And Business school won the overall championship! YAY! I'm so happy ya?! It's like third time in a row! 3 years consecutively! I'm glad the freshies did the seniors proud! (: HAHA!

And there was this time when this SL I don't know looked at me for a few seconds and started hugging me! She was cute la. When I asked her what we won, (at that time, I still didn't know) she said she didn't know too! Omg. She's weird and funny! Haha.

So tired tired tired. LOL. I slept right through the night. (:

love, vannie. (2:31 PM)

Thursday, April 19, 2007

Time Check: 08.30 pm (exactly 12 hours to the starting time for school!)

3 little but wonderful things made me HAPPY today! Hee hee! I'm feeling so relaxed and elated! (:

Yep! Finally I got my very own nice jacket! From Samuel and Kevin! The one I've been looking for! Yay! I like it sooooooo much. It doesn't look too formal, yet it doesn't look very casual.. To simplify that, it's just stylish. (: I like the zips used, instead of buttons. The buttoned one I tried on was too formal and business like. No no. I'm not a business woman yet. So, I got this! Mammy says this is nicer too!

And I'm having the best time of my life knowing I own this jacket for only $23.60!!! Okay, the actual price was $59.90. So, how did I get it at such a low price?! That's gotta be the 60% SALE they were putting up for it!! The buttoned one only cost $19. But this is nicer!! ((: worth paying!

I'm happy as I'm paying for it myself. Mammy offered to get it for me, but I declined. I have to get my own things with my own money. Using Mammy's money is a no-no. Strictly NO spending of her money for my own stuffs! (:
See! I'm a good girl! :D

2)
YAY YAY! Next thing that brightened up my day so much! I was looking through the Seventeen Magazine and was reading the subscription form thingy. So, I asked Mammy very casually.. (note: VERY CASUALLY) "Should I subscribe? So I can save the trouble of buying it every month at the newsstands..." She came over, took a look and asked more about the pricing and all. Then...

She picked up the phone and went ahead to enquire more about the subscription! I was actually waiting for her to scream and holler at me for not wanting to save money! Okay. I was SERIOUSLY SHOCKED by her quick decison.

And she subscribed the Seventeen Mag for me right at that moment!
Whee! I'm so happy okay. She asked if I want to take it as a birthday present from her. But I said no. The cost of the party can already kill me amounting to two to three months of my pocket money! I don't want to let her pay more. The party is already my birthday present from her! (:

3)
Next thing! Hahas! Papppy gave me pocket money again! I'm supposed to be "angry" with him... 'Cos last month when I haven't even started school, he had given me enough already. Now, he's giving me again! I feel bad.. But Mammy says that's because he loves me! ((: So, I've decided not to touch the extra money... I'm gonna save save save! :D

4)
I'm waiting for school! Time flies. I won't say I can't wait anymore! I'm actually waiting for the time to pass... So I'm actually typing this entry very very very very... S L O W L Y. I want to off my lappie and go to bed straight! I'm waiting for the iPod to be charged and then I'll go. Sleeping at 10.30! And I'm waking at 06.30 am! Pappy's fetching me to school! YAY!!

Okay! I'm going off! Anticipating a great day ahead for me tomorrow! (:
♥ Loves!

love, vannie. (12:41 PM)

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

1)
I'm going to school in a couple of hours now! Thursday, 19th April. Hahas! Pappy's fetching me to school on my first day! And I'm so happy you know! YAY-ness! ((:

2)
My beloved tortoise died. And I was the one who found out. On 14 April 2007. I'm sad that it didn't at least wait for my birthday to come first. I mean, it's like 9 days? Hais. REST IN PEACE MY DEAR. FYI, I haven't recovered from my mourning. I always get so teary talking abt him. Hais. This is the like the 10th year? Hais. So much happiness and sadness we've been through together. Though it's just a tortoise. I'm feeling so hurt losing him. Sighs. It's been a loooong time...

And among we 3 siblings, I'm always the one going to feed the 3 terrapins and the 7 baby guppies. Yep, not to mention talking to them too. So, you see, I have very strong bonds with them ya.. And I don't know why is it MY tortoise to die first! Hais..

Pappy and Mammy was talking about me that day. Talking about why I'm always the one who discover the pets leave. Hamsters, guppies and terrapin. Why? My parents say it's because I can be bothered to go take a look at them. Not like my brother and sister who only notice them when their gone..

Sighs sighs sighs..

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It looks sth like this, though I got it from photobucket.. I'm still mourning. Well, at least for now. I feel so attached to it ya? Yep yep, rest in peace... I'm never gonna forget you! ♥ LOVES so many!

3)
I've have gone to do my Ez-link card. Went to check the status just now and it's in the process of getting done! YAY! I can't wait to get it.

4)
I'm feeling terrible for Mammy. She seems to be very worried about her eyes. And all thanks to my brother who brought the virus home and spreaded to her... Yup, she can't go to work. Yesterday I accompanied her to see my uncle again. And I think we have to go get MC again. Hope she recovers soon. I hate to see her suffer.

5)
I woke up today hearing Mammy screaming at my sis. And my sis talking back. I absolutely loathe it when it starts. I mean. why can't my sis just understand. You have a sick mother at home, and all you can think is run away for dance. Ya! Dance your life away! Mammy has been taking care of her when the both of them have sore eyes. And now when she's better, she flies. She has been sleeping and sleeping. Talking about resting, Mammy has the least of it! And she has the most!

It's sad and disappointing to have such a sister. Like this, I'd rather not have. Making Mammy constantly angry and worried. Nothing seems to help to get her come to her senses. I think I should arrange counselling sessions for her. Seriously.

6)
Okays, as you can see, I'm not in my best of moods today. Actually I'm feeling kinda grouchy these days...

love, vannie. (2:42 PM)

My advanced Birthday Celebration! (14 April 2007)
I sooooooo HAPPY! That's 'cos I celebrated my Birthday in advance with dearies! And I finally got to see Meihwa! No words can express my happiness and bliss at that moment (: Yep, and we went to Vivo City! That's like the only large-landscape place we could think of. So, we met Meihwa there at Ben & Jerry's.

This was one of the "values" they have, printed on the table! Cute!

We look nice here! Hahas (:

Felicia (the girl who was late 'cos she was doing sth... [: )

Dearies with the cows! ((:

Another candid :]

Meihwa (the business woman)

Meihwa and I!

Three girlies!

Shadows...

Whoo-hoo! Pink and red cow!! :D

The plants and I! YAY!

Meihwa dearie.

Fellie dearie.

Lexxie dearie.

Ate at Sakae Sushi at Causeway point. We felt cheated when they put the sign stating the price of the buffet thingy. And guess what. We totally forgot about that not applying for Saturdays! So we went in and were told ther were no buffet. Okay then, why put the sign ya? Anyways, we didn't eat alot too.

They bought me a cake. A STRAWBERRY CAKE! And how lovely it looked! I was happy and touched ♥. They were trying ways and means for me not to notice. Laughing at how Fel's legs look funny when actually she was trying hard to light the candle. (:

MY STRAWBERRY CAKE!

Even the candle is pink and red.

Any idea how 'much' we ate? Count!

After eating, Meihwa left for her project. Fel, Lex and I went to MacDonalds' to talk. We chatted about a lot of things. Happy, sad, past, present, future. Anything under the MOON and STARS!

While walking to the interchange, my heels got stucked inside some stupid drain. Many thanks to Fel, who got it out for me! :D The both of them sent me home despite feeling tired. (: ♥

Bussie. (:

Yup, as they said. The climax of the day: When I my jaws dropped with amazement at the sight of an Adidas paper bag with something RED inside, lying so innocently on my bed..

Apparently, My Mom told me everything. I was touched. Really touched. Felicia, Meihwa, Lex and Wanying got the bag I wanted so much for me! I was in seriously in for the shock of my life. So, as I said earlier, Fel was late. And she was late because she went to my house to put the bag down. All done to surprise me. Yep, they achieved it! (: I was very happy. We cried. Hehs. (: I couldn't stop smiling and I told Fel:

This will be the BEST present I get to receive in my life, 'cos this is the present given to me from MY DEARESTs FRIENDS.

MY LOVEY ♥

love, vannie. (1:08 PM)

Saturday, April 14, 2007

1)
I hope I don't get the sore eye buggie. I've been overly paranoid since yesterday. But now, it's going for the worsT. Yes, worst with a T. My right eye feels really irritating and painful with those gooey stuffs and pink eyes, which is the exact symptom for sore eye patients. The last thing I want now is to have sore eyes. Dear me, dear me. What should I do? I still wanna go out tomorrow. All I can do now is to hope for the best out of it...

2)
Mommy and Sissie caught the buggie too. And now I seriously hope I don't...

3)
Went for the ENT appointment today, at TTSH. Waited and waited for my turn then the nurse called out my name. The doctor said she was going to stick a camera down my nose. And I was like: HUH?! The feeling was NOT nice at all I tell you. It felt disgusting having something like a stick poked all the way back your nose, going deeper and deeper inside. Eew! Plus the chemical she sprayed in my nose to relieve the sensation of having the camera inserted down my nose, was disgusting. I had to swallow it cause it'll flow into my throat. And it smelled like lychee, but tasted AWFUL! Yikes!

So yeah. I think I have to have that camera inserted into my nose again on 18th of May, at 1530. I feel like a sick patient now.

And I'll have to spray the nasal spray twice a day. And take like so many medication. Antibiotics, steriods, and medication to relieve the side effects from taking steriods. And speaking of steriods... Luckily I'm taking it for a short term only, so my uncle says it won't cause much side effects.

My greatest concern is that I remembered during history some years ago, I learnt that the women of the past took alot of steriods and they become VERY manly. And they looked like men too. So I'm naturally scared. I'd rather be GIRLY than manly! Gosh. But then again, luckily mine are not the stronger type that'll cause people to be manly. *relieve*

Another thing is that I heard the pharmacist saying don't know what one of the side effects is getting moon face and weight gain. But I think should be happening only if taken long term. But WEIGHT GAIN is my second concern! I don't want to grow fatter okay. Wasting my efforts of jian fei-ing. OMG!

Yep, so now I'm counting on medication to get the piece of flesh shrink and go off. If not, my worst fear will come true! That is cutting it away during surgery. By doing that, the flesh might just come back again. So I was thinking.. If it mght come back, why do it huh? So I hope it'll be nice and go away... (:

4)
I can't wait for tomorrow. But it seems quite scary. I don't know if the eye irritation is going away. I hope so... Then I can go... Feeling kinda pressurised. Hope I'll be fine to go so that no one will cry and be disappointed. I think I'll cry more if I can't go. Well, I can't help it with 3 people in my house having the buggie. It's not like I want the bug to come infect me. Hais. Go away Buggie...

5)

HAH! My application for my Tertiary Ez-link card is approved! YAY! So i'm eligible to go apply! Hahaha! I'm going tomorrow, that's provided I'm fine to go out la. YAY! then I can get my card done! Hee hee! Not ugly I hope! Haha!

♥ Loves!

love, vannie. (2:07 PM)

Friday, April 13, 2007

Okays! I finished doing the decorations for my party already! I feel so efficient. 'Cos I went to buy the paper today and started doing. And I drew VERY neatly that they look like they were printed. But NO! I drew them with my very own hands! So, I'm extremely proud of myself! I even finished wrapping them in aluminium foil ( for shinier look)!

Woke up early today to bring my brother to go see doc. He came back from school early as he's gotten the sore eye buggie. Eew, now my eyes feel so uncomfy! Daddy fetched us there and back! While I was getting some liang cha for my brother, there's this woman who was talking to her friends.

Shopkeeper (asks the woman): Which kind do you want?

Woman: I want somthing that can get rid of my FATS! (starts to laugh ever-so-loudy)

Yep! And the shopkeeper ignored her? LOL. The woman said it VERY LOUDLY! So, practically everyone could hear her. And she laughed so loudly after saying that. My brother and I just looked at each other and walked away giggling.. (:

I have my NOSE appointment tomorrow! Filian and Mommy are going with me! YAY! Heh heh. I'm scared but I'm not scared too. I'm not scared of the checking.. But I'm scared of the result. I just want medication. I don't want to cut or burn it. I have LOW pain threshold!!

I'm so disappointed now. Terribly disappointed. For everything I say or do, I think of you. How you would feel or react. And this is how you treat me? For goodness sake. Get a life! Do you know how self-centered you are? If you don't, please go reflect on what "GOOD" you have done ya? I am not your servant or animal, I DONT SUBMIT MYSELF TO YOU!

Okay. I shall not be bothered. As I said already. I'm OUT.

♥ Loves.

love, vannie. (3:37 PM)

Thursday, April 12, 2007

♥ Cousins.

Vannie, Fellie, Lexxie (:

mini US

I'm being nicey nicey no more.
I'm tired, really tired. Tired of all the nonsense. There's a limit to my patience. Just stop it kay. Stop acting all spoilt and all. Spoilt is the only word I can use. Continue if you want, I can't be bothered ya? Drop it.

Okay okays! I'm happy 'cos my birthday is already fixed. On 29th of April. Which is also Granny's birthday. So we're celebrating for her too. And the "great" thing is that I have to do the words "VANNIE" and "AHMAH" on vanguard sheets, ALL BY MYSELF! Oh, how GREAT! Luckily we're going to buy the "HAPPY BIRTHDAY". Omg, who actually do the decorations for themselves?( I feel pathetic!) Be sure to look (stare for the whole night) at it and appreciate my work on that day ya!

Meihwa, get well soon so we'll be able to go celebrate my birthday this Saturday! (:
Felicia, don't fan le okay. Let's be mean together (:
Lex, think positively ya? Titration's fun de. The more practice the better! Fret not! (:

I feel FAT. That's 'cos I keep having the craving for cakes, like I told Fellie this afternoon. Oh, no. I feel FAT, I feel FAT, I feel FAT! 50 situps and 20 crunches a day still make me feel FAT all the time. I'll do more, this is only the starting. (: Omg. :/ Oh dear...

I still remember telling Meihwa and Felicia about looking for a boyfriend dring the Christmas season last year! Well, grabbing one on the road. Literally. Yeah, I wanted presents badly la. Not that I don't have any. I wanted MORE! :D What more can you expect from a girl huh? MORE, MORE and MORE!

And now!..... I must search for one! For my birthday! Hahahas. I'm joking only. Really. (:

♥ Loves!

love, vannie. (2:51 PM)

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Okays! I'm super duper happy and excited today! And that's because I get to talk to people I missed, all at one time! And that made me feel really blessed, happy and thankful to have you guys etched in my heart. (:

As I was saying, I was talking to Felicia, Eileen, Lex and Marcus. Haha! And that made me really happy. (Oops, did i mention that again?) Yeah yeah. And Fellie says i'm hyper. Yep, and that's the cause of putting too many exclamation marks! Hehs!

We are all selfish people. (Okays, that's really random :D)

There's a mango-changed-to-lychee tree, across the bridge, where we are going to meet under... And there's a river filled not with water but with crystals for me to steal. (: But no police around as there are no thieves. ( Yup, I'm not a thief!) A tower tall enough to reach the skies and the stars. So, we can pluck the stars down from there. And a neoprint machine, and a little white house. Not forgetting out 4 Bai Ma Wang Zis (as in 4 white horses) waiting to pick us up. Whilst waiting for the others to arrive (when they fall into slumber), we can eat lychees under the tree...

Such a beautiful story and place. And that's none other than Lex's mind cum dream. Yeah, every night when we sleep, we meet under the lychee tree! (: How wonderful!

YAY! I'm so happy ya? I'm missing the sweetest people on earth now..

Felicia, Meihwa, Lex, Eileen, Wanying, Clement, Xiaofang, Yihui and Marcus.
And that also makes the people I invite for my birthday party! You guys are my dearests! (:

♥ LOVES!

love, vannie. (4:37 PM)

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Okay okay... I know...
I know it's too early to check for my application for my Tertiary ez-link card. But, I can't fight the anticipation that's creating a cresendo in me! I really can't wait to get my hands on it! Dear me, it's still 3 days before the actual date for checking. In fact, I went to check only 5 days after sending in my documents! I'm actually supposed to wait for 14 days... God, I'm excited!

Having Eileen visit my blog is nice! Hahaa. How I miss our Mother Eel.. (:

I LOVE cutting veggies all of a sudden. I guess I just want to help Mommy. Well, for the fear of her ranting and hollering her frustrations at me. I'd rather request to help first than to get a scolding for lazing around. But, I love talking to Mommy about anything under the sun. That's bonding. (: Being at home with Mommy is warm, yet threatening. :x

Most of the times, she's really nice and will even share her problems with me. (I'm the only one who knows these problems, not my sis or bro. :D) I feel honoured. I'm happy that she trusts me and confides in me. (:
Sometimes, the emotions come flying in and kick me right in my face. Just the minority of the times though.. It's not that bad, really.

All in all, I love My Mommy (who is always worrying about us all) and My Daddy (who freaked me out totally with the lizard joke which made me cry on Sunday night, and typed "hee hee" for the first time in overseas messages to me) and My elder Sister (who hugged and shushed me when I cried so helplessly the day I knew I couldn't get the Adidas sling bag) and My younger Brother (who talks to me nicely most of the times, which in turn, makes me happy).

I LOVE MY FAMILY!

♥ Loves.

love, vannie. (5:08 PM)

It's raining and raining and raining. I just wonder when my birthday celebration is going to be held. I'm so frustrated, yet I can't tell anyone. I haven't even invited my father side relatives. And the supposed date is this Saturday, if not next Sunday. Surely people have their plans already right? Hais. I don't know.

Now I hope it's next Sunday. Why? So that it will not be a last minute notice to everyone. At least they have time. Wanying haven't been replying to my messages, wonder why? :x

Am I shut out from the world or what? I just don't get what people are thinking or what they want. I don't like this at all. I'd rather be my happy self.

Someone, cheer me up please. ):

♥ Loves.

love, vannie. (4:21 AM)

Monday, April 09, 2007

I so miss everyone kay!
Especially Meihwa and Wanying.
Wanying: I really hope you can come for my birthday ya?

Met Felicia and Lex on Friday and yesterday. We went walking at the Esplanade and town on Friday. Yep, and we laughed alot on the way home. We laughed way too much.. :x I guess we filled the whole MRT with our laughters! Hehs! And yesterday, Felicia came for a swim and Lex came for a run ( on the treadmill). For that, I'm happy. (:

Whether I should express myself, I don't know. I don't even know if I know how to. I guess someone out there feels the same. Well, not some one only. Some others...

I'm having too much to think these days. Every night I just toss and turn till i finally fall into my slumber. But still, I don't fall into a deep sleep. Just a light one that even a lizard's sound can wake me up. I try to clear my mind every night. In the past, it was easy to sleep. Now, I can try clearing my mind for hours..

Yesterday I helped my brother colour his gingerbread man. And I drew its face too. Initially, he wanted me to draw a traditional chinese face. But I don't know how to draw and the one my mom drew was scary ! Haha, so we made do with the cuter one I drew! Haha! (:

Those confirmed: Meihwa, Felicia, Lex, XiaoFang, Clement and Eileen.

I FINALLY GOT MY CONVERSE SHOES for $49.90! YAY!

♥ Loves.

love, vannie. (7:20 AM)

Friday, April 06, 2007

Arghhhhhh!!!!!! ( I can hear myself screaming inside!!!) I'm so bored staying at home doing NOTHING! Oh well. Nothing meaningful I guess. All I do is sit and lie around doing my father's work and reading my storybook. There's loads of things with dust and cobwebs all over waiting to be cleaned. But, I just can't get my butt down and start clearing those hateful stuffs on my list!

And I drag and drag and drag....

... till the things grow with more dust and cobwebs...

My hands are feeling itchy! (again..)
Dear me, I think I'm starting to feel deprived of stuffs again! And what do I do when I feel like that? I start to buy things!

Okays okays. I know it's a sin to say that now.. :x

My dear friends, please pardon me if I don't feel like going out nowadays. It's not that I don't miss you all or I don't want to go out with you all. Basically, I'm just lazy to leave house now. Not even going out to shop! See how serious that is? (though my hands are still itching...) I guess that's normal when you all are at school, while I'm cooped up at home.

I suddenly LOVE the feel of being cooped up at home! See? That's the cause of being lazy.

Maybe because I'm now on the strike of not wasting a single cent unnecessarily... I hope it won't hurt spending a little. Ahhh!! You see.. my brain and my hands just won't work together. My head tells me no, but my hands say yes! Oh gosh..

Having said all that, I'm still going out with Felicia and Lex tomorrow! Well, I guess I need some fresh air? :D However, I truly hope I can keep my hands to my sides. The no-spending-money-unnecessarily drive is still within me. Though not in control anymore... :x

Speaking of a day out with Fellie and Lexxie, I got to realise something. Everytime I meet friends these days, it's just the both of them. Where are the rest? Meihwa, Wanying!

Though I still message Meihwa everyday, I don't see your face you know! I don't see you! :( I shall book you early early next time! And give me a copy of your timetable please, so I can know when you are free to go out... (: I really miss you!!

Wanying! Where are you?! I didn't get to see you anywhere after the outing to Sentosa! Not even online... :( Ahh, give me a copy of your timetable too! So I can compare and see when we all are free to go out.. :) I miss you too huh!

No matter how lazy I am, I will still make it a point to go out with you guys.
I mean, AS A WHOLE. (not anyone less)

Felicia, Meihwa, Wanying, Lex and ME!

♥ Loves!

love, vannie. (4:35 AM)

Thursday, April 05, 2007

Yay! I finally managed to get rid of those papers and magazines I got from the Polys' Open House! So there are still more tedious work waiting for me. My bookshelf needs to be cleared for my new books! And I need to rid of those children storybooks too! :)

I don't know where to put my Secondary 4 books now. Especially my Chem text. I love it so much you see... So I don't want to throw. Neither do I want to give it away. It wasn't easy to be able to have a book of my own. Usually, I would be using books that My Sis or My Cousins passed down to me. So my Chem, Physics and Maths texts are my precious babies! They still look new to me! :)

I slept early last night. Two to three hours earlier than normal. So I slept at 12 am. I want to adjust my timing back to normal. I'll be starting school soon. So sleeping earlier now would really help!

I dreamt of you three girls and meimei last night. For some reason which I don't know, you three were staying at my house! And when I woke up ( in my dream) you were all off to your schools. I don't know why I have such a weird dream. This is the one part which I remembered. So I can't get to picture what happened in the beginning. Maybe I just miss you all too much bah.

And I remembered another scene where I was in the supermarket after you three went to school. Haha! I saw Lex there. LOL! I'm clueless on how I ended up at the supermarket also. Hahas!

So you see how much I miss you all that you even appeared in my dream? As people always say: What you ponder in the day will appear in your dream in the night! (:

♥ Loves!

love, vannie. (3:58 AM)

Tuesday, April 03, 2007

1) Felicia: You must be strong at this point of time. And there's alot of things you have to do. I guess you are also stressed about many things now. Maybe writing them down and try solving them one by one will help? Just a suggestion though. :) Take your time. Don't rush into things and get yourself stressed. Take care! And believe in yourself. Have some confidence ya? Give yourself time. :) Last but not least, SMILE!

2) Saturday was Daddy's brithday! 31st March. We celebrated with a cake for him on that day. He didn't really expect it 'cos we waited till 11:55 before we got the cake out! Well, I said I was getting some ice-cream and he believed. LOL

We bought Chocolate Mousse from Prima Deli. I love their cakes! :)

Somehow, I realised some people don't know how to spell MOUSSE. That's because I saw this written on the box: MOUSE! And this scares the hell out of me! Am I suppose to expect a mouse jumping out from the cake?

3) We went to celebrate My Dad's birthday yesterday at Safra Tampines. We ate at the Japanese Buffet Restaurant they have there. There were truck loads of food! All of us ate till we drop. Well, something like that. Haha! They served such a wide spread of food! I know Meihwa would love that place! :D

4) The Adidas store at Centrepoint's Robinsons has no female stuffs. Except for the caps which are unisex! Humph. I was like searching for the female section but to no avail! Gosh! How can that be? I was looking for the red sling bag so I can *hint hint* to my parents. But sadly, i couldn't find it. :x

5) Lastly! People I'm inviting to my brithday! Haha! Be honoured if your name appears here! Heh! 'Cos I'm inviting you few! Though I'm still considering two more. Well, we'll see again!

Felicia
Meihwa
Wanying
Lex
Clement
Eileen
Xiaofang
Marcus
Yihui
Ruirong

So that's 10 for now! :)

♥ LOVES Y'ALL!

love, vannie. (2:38 PM)

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