thelittlelovetoken

haii..
todae so sick....
having cough.....
cough for the whole day le.....
haii... so xing ku...
hmmm...don really wanna blog...
cuz,,,juz got a real fright out of my life...
a realli scary one...
dunno~~
don care oso cannot...
she just keeps teasing me....
dot dot dot......
i dunno.......
btw,,
i think the "heart"is nice...
its perfect...=)
too bad.......
haii....
i dunno........never mind....
oh,...i forgot to notice the sun flower todae...
haii,..*cough*cough*
nevermind................

love, vannie. (11:55 AM)

i dunno wad i talking oso...
Thursday, September 23, 2004

cant seem to rmb anything...can only rmb that i muz write bout that sun flower....

the dae b4 , going out of sch le...den was walking past the fence...something yellow yellow de caught my eye lorhZz..haha...stupid sun flower....dunno why catch so much of my attention??...

i oso dunno...fel sae i crazie....mabbe bahZz..not sure...that sun flower really left an impact on me...mabbe it brings back sad memories bahZz...nvm...

rrmb wad i wanted to sae le...=) ..todae got chinese oral after sch....mr du so bad...fel and i ask him can go take lunch 1st not...cuz hungry mahZz...den he come gl sae cannot....nvm...don care him...went back to class...

1.40 le...haii..was looking out of the class with mh...she look straight, i look up...hahaXx..we looked so damn stupid....2 lost gurls looking out of the class like crazie ppl...sian diao...din manage to catch a view of him...haii...went back to sit with jk and fel..

haha..sat opp them...jk and i talking bout christianity...wah!!so damn fun lor!!!~~that jk really religious de...he noes everything..hahax...was differentiating christian and catholic...hahax...fun sia!!!!~~

haii...finally my turn le...i tink bout 3.45 le...so late...sianx..i read till like dunno wad..this is suppose to be a CHINESE oral....but guess wad...i cant stop saying "DEN"...!!!!haii...confirm fail de lorhZz...his standard so high de....sianx...

opp school waiting for bus with fel and jk...tok tok tok...haha...den suddenly jk noticed something.....he was like..."is that peter? "...i look here look there,oso don look like him lehz...but actually is lehx...die le...my eye sight failing...haii..at 1st jk shout out peter's name,den turn away...fake sia...den later fel ask him he go home izzit...he nodded...budden fel din see him nod, den she like irritated,den ask again.....

took the bus...went down at sun plaza...we all taking MRT to causeway...jk tok to peter...fel and i walk first....sin yee was with peter the all...actually wanna go tok to her de...budden i got nth to tok to her...juz left with jk and fel...

went to buy somethings...jk and fel accompany me....**thankiew**......nen come meet fel outside colds storage....jk and i go home together...hahax...talk bout christianity again....din noe wud be that fun de...=D......

love, vannie. (4:38 PM)

sianx
Wednesday, September 22, 2004

donno wad to sae...kinda sianx lorhz..
cant think of anything..
cant concentrate....
so sad...
i dunno...
siti sitting beside me....
she's being lame[as usual]....
never mind...
no one cares..
now she screaming at me..
dot dot..........
helpless..........
hopeless.........
never mind....

love, vannie. (6:48 AM)

music recital...spray...squirt...
Thursday, September 16, 2004

todae went to school as per normal...nth much...felt quite sianx...surprise though...=)

i found out everything le...everything....wad exactly happened......

went for music recital wif fel, mh, siti, joon kiat and ahmah at 2.30 ...hahax...was quite boring..had to listen to them all play the piano and the violin... oh..rr got play oso...he was there oso...carrying his stupid water bottle...=X

got break at bout 3.40...din wan to go downstairs wit mh to see tkk...=( ~ waited outside for ahmah and jk...dey so slow...haii..later he came out oso.....he spray water at me for so many times...

hahaz..i complain to sin yee...she ask me to beat him...actualli ask her to help me de..but she sae n need to scared mah...so i hit him quite hard on his back...sorrie..din mean to..=X

den he spray water at my face..kena my mouth summore...=X..

sianx...he keep asking wanna go hall not...haha..din care...went back up to siti and fel...dot dot..they were like giving me funni faces and saying funni things...nvm..haii..he came up and spray water on the floor near my shoe...=S ..ahmah sae wad i can taste his saliva...=X how disgusting..

time to go back le...hear them play...was sin yee's and his turn...he play the time, still can talk de wor...haha..he play wrongly...serve him rite....=X

all of us left...we went to the canteen...they wanted to buy things..waited fer them...so slow...haii...dis time even worse..he com squirt water onto my bag and my shoes....stupid guy....... he wanted to leave with ahmah...haha..luckily i stop ahmah frm leaving...ask him wait fer us...=s

i wait fer fel dey all..ahmah waiting fer me..den he waiting fer ahmah...haii...we all wait for everyone..hahahahahaha.....finalli they finished....all of them sae they waiting for me...jk even worse...sae wad i waiting fer him...dot dot...and he said it in front of him...sianx...

eft the sch lor...that jk go kick the tree,den all the rain fell....haha..so shuang...nvm...on the bus, they all bully me...ask him sit wit me...sianx..i sat alone..haha...b4 he went down,he waved goodbye t all of us..haha..1st time......=)

love, vannie. (12:56 PM)

nice hair..
Wednesday, September 08, 2004

hahahahahahha.....so happie...i oso dunno why...=) mabbe cuz of him??haha

todae went for band frm 8 to 4 again...so tired liaox...happie happie dae..

during lunch time, he keep asking us to pack up our things...i was busy drawing my ghost la...den he there chanting that it was time for lunch..haha..so funny.. keep asking to go back to the band rm to put ur instruments.,.

aft lunch, ahmah,jeremy and i went up to the band rm...aiyox...the door wasnt open, was locked....the bunch of us had to climb in thru the window..haha..he was the first to get in.... i tink i was the fourth...but was the first gal to get in...hahax =)

sianx lehx, when getting ready to jump down the table le, i cut my finger..... that stupid corner la..so sharp...now so painful...haii...*sobx sobx*....

poor ahmah still stuck outside...dunno why he like don wanna come in liddat........i was practically shouting for him lor...feel so stupid...hahax....he ask me who is my ahmah wor...hahax...den he so good, help me call ahmah to come in..haha..xie xie ni....=)

oh..when i calling ahmah de time,he pulled my hair...hahax...he not like other ppl,pull so rough de...=) ~~ he pull my hair he den sae "nice hair"....hahax...

haiyah...see ahmah play his tuba..so funny...nvm...
he walk past me,den 'pull' my hair again...he sae "nice hair" again..haha....he turned and smiled at me...so cutex manx...haha

..........................such a wonderful dae....................................

love, vannie. (1:41 PM)

cute.,.
Saturday, September 04, 2004

todae went for band..in the morn reach school only,i go find ahmah..hahax...sat there and tok with ahmah...

finally he come le..he sat opp. me...befor he sat down,,he call me pervert againx...neva mind...i continue toking to ahmah...hahax...ahmah so funny...keep making me laugh...=P [he suddenly take out his maths to do..**SURPRISED**....he will do work one ar??hahax...

was looking at him while chatting..hahax..he looked so funny when he's doing his work manx..oops..i so bad..but its the truth..haha..actualy i oso think he not doin his work lor...cuz he was like eavesdropping me, ahmah and jeremy's conversation...=X

he do work never concentrate de...look here look there..so funny...ohh....den this is even more funny..hahax...he suddenly sneeze out of a sudden...made a veh loud sound...frightened me..=X....he froze at his position and smiled at me...hahax..so cute...=)

after band,,got drilling..i din drill with the others....kinda got fever...sat at the table with anita,looking at all of them.....he like bo chap bo chap liddat.. hahax......=)

love, vannie. (3:52 PM)

haha..finally u are okie...
Friday, September 03, 2004

feel so nice now...haii...can relax le....but not realli la..still got lotsa things to do......dot dot dot ....nvm...

haha...stil tot he angry wor...jie sae that he irritated by other things...den wasn't having any mood to talk...mabbe bahz...fel, mj, rui rong oso sae so...dunno~

mabbe i too sensitive le.....shud be bahz....i very sensitive to ppl asking me " what you want "....that's why i got so damn fed up...haii...

everything is fine le...but somehow, suspision still lingers in the air...dunno...mabbe i shud trust everyone??

todae went to school din see him....nvm...mabbe he was late?? oh..den msg him during recess to check if he is okie...he din reply...tot he was still mad...

during lit, rui rong message me...i din noe...he ask me why i never go in front of the class to talk...hahax..de ppl acting ma...omg..nvm..don't wanna sae it here...=X

we planned le...for the fairy tale thing, we gonna act out Peter Pan in Neverland.......the characters will be Peter Pan and Captain Jasper Hook...hahax..luckily i am the narrator...whee~~

aft school he finalli replied le..he said he's ok...ok..din wanna tok so much to him oso..leaving school de time,he was with *-sexy beautiful-* de grp at the study area....don't care anyway..

Fel, Siti, Jeremy, Yong Sheng and i went to sun plaza to shop for wei chuan's b'dae present...took a long time...btw, i saw an ideal present that i could get for turtle's b'dae...haha...

aft that, we went to causeway to buy card...saw rui rong...we go where oso see him de....hahax...whee~~ we took neoprints for two times...de first time was a failure...de second one was nice..haha...WPO rawkx...

so happie todae....how i wished that i could be free..........

love, vannie. (10:31 AM)

how can u do this to me ??
Wednesday, September 01, 2004

sadx sadx.....wad have i done?

junnow ask him something...ask finish le, he come sae "what you want?" ..dot dot.....i din noe wad he toking bout...he say that he is sorrie if he is harsh....but den...wad did i do?? =X

he said he was irritated.........................................so i could onli tell him that i was sorrie...i have no other choice...haii...he said " its ok"..."i'm sorry".....haii...

din reply to his apology...i dunno why...but then i was realli fuming mad and veh sad..so i din care bout him.......=X ...want to let him noe that i not so good to bully de.....

now he off le...i don care oso...junnow mj and rui rong tried to calm me down...dey two veh funny...tried to cheer me up oso...feeling btr le...thankiew ar!!!

hahax...rui rong veh good...he letmme scold him wor...he ask me to take himself as 'him'........hahax...had a realli fun time scolding...scolding time, was actualli crying lorhx...tok to both of them de time oso crying...haii..

thankiew mj and rui rong for cheering me up..thanx a milion...

NO ONE will understand me....NO ONE will noe wads hidden inside me----------->>my true self.........how i actualli feel......[ not even u...]

the Vanessa that u alwaes see is not her true self.....wad is hidden behind...its a sadx girl hu is waiting aimlessly.....i have been hiding my true feelings for as long as i noe u.....................

love, vannie. (2:43 PM)

teachers' day..

todae teachers dae celebration.....early morn went to the music room,let that "blur blur" mr low lock up there...sianx..have to resort to climbing out through the window..=X

8.30 that time went to the hall there..we had to hide at the stairs..i so tired, went to sit on the stairs..den he walk come sit beside me...dot dot...the whole stairs to big,muz squeeze into the small space and sit beside me mehx??

never mind...i forgive u lor..sorrie huh...din realli tok cuz i realli tired..

when the teachers performin, we were behind the curtains..haha...both of us were like screaming and cheering for the teachers..mei qi couldn't stand us..haha..=X

ooooooohhhh..was our turn to perform.....when the curtains were still closed, i accidentally screamed..all because of the wire la..nvm..

de curtains open le...wah sooooooo nervous manx..we played " Song For You" first..en after that was " YMCA "....the first song i din play loudly,cuz i keep squeaking...

" YMCA " we had to stand up...sianx..i was shivering like mad wor...my fingers move till like i kena electric shock liddat..my leggies oso...sian diao...had to stand for this song..ahahahaha..wore the sunglasses on my neck..

ee er...finalli finish le...i go back music rm le, my hand still shaking lor..lolx..
haha...wad a stupid dae wor...haii..no fun de....

fel sae she was cheering fer me...den she sae he play till so "shuai" wor....act onli...=X wahahahahahaha...wheeeeee...

love, vannie. (2:20 PM)

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