thelittlelovetoken

hmms. now at home alone. such a long day for me today (: vehrie tired. today had lessons till four? at first, had a-maths after school, den had social studies till four o'clock. i so pathetic huh.

i bought the formal and informal photo le. hees, so nice huh (him). hahas, not me. i only like the informal one. i looked better yahs?, hees. yeas, he also looked better in the informal one, cos he smiled. hais. always see him smile, will think about what i told him in the past. hais. told him before that he must smile, cos he wont noe who's in lurfe wif his smile. hais. i miss those times.

yeas. today he have talked to me. yah, whole day make me only. so sad yahs? ahaha. no la. actually i very very happie de :D. thankkies! yes, he like play wif me again? dunnoe wad he tell me, i think he asked me not to be so noisy. hais, but i very bad. i told him to shut up. hais. yes. but he didn't care huh. still keep calling my name when i already turned my back to him (purposely ignore him). " vanessa, vanessa, vanessa! " hais, i was just playing huh. i turned back again, and he irritated me again. (:

oh yah, during recess, that stupid justin almost tripped me. was going back to the table mahs. den he stretched out his leggie. at first, i already smelled something fishy le. so i walked slowly. haha, or else i will embarass myself right in front of yllej. aiyo. hahas, anw, i kicked his stretched out leg. hahas. revenge! :x

love, vannie. (10:47 AM)

Thursday, September 15, 2005

hais. today was okies bahs. only wanted to cry and throw temper for several times. feeling terrible. hais.

school was okae, not that boring afterall :). after school. went for band. at first, they say mrneo not coming. was like quite happie yahs. hees, but later he came anyway. in the beginning, he was lecturing us like hell. later, when we started playing, wahs, his mood change lehs! so satisfied with us! hahas (:

after band, went to bball court there (outside general office). felicia and i talked so much. while talking, i was also looking at them play. hais. keep thinking bout the past. hais so sad yahs, felt like throwing temper at that time.

anyways, was watching him. i dun care what others say le. hais. den he walked over, asked me sth. (: first time he talked to me today. just one sentence again. maybe still okae bahs. can't ask for too much. at least btr than nothing. (:

how i wished i could go back to the past.
must we only say one sentence to each other only, every single day?
i reallie missed those times that we were reallie close. hais.
i long to go back to the past. hais.
although i know it would never happen.

love, vannie. (12:43 PM)

Monday, September 12, 2005

hais. been reallie sad and disappointed these few days. nvm yeahs? *shakes head* cannot cannot cry. hais. keep telling myself, but cannot control at all. hais. sorries meihwa, i broke our promise. hehes, nvm rite? cos you also broke it rite? *naughty girl* :)

hmms. these few days, see yllej, den vehrie sad lorhs. its like the feeling is undescrible. hais. maybe sarah noes bahs, had a long talk with her on wed. on that day, after band, we met feland jk at the bball court. hais. actually dun wanna go de. reaching le, tears welled up in my eyes when i saw him.

so sad lorhs, cos sth happened before that, in the library. hais, no one will noehow it feels like. TERRIBLE! just walk away like no one's business. *heart shatters* that day he sick huh. actually wanted to send 'getwellsoon' message, but i think i shouldn't be such a busybody rite? maybe as a friend? nah, things now are different. he might think otherwise, den ignore me even more? so rather not take the risk.

things are changing in such a rapid speed nowadays. i tried to run away, but made ppl dsappointed. hais. so am i suppose to stay there and suffer in silence? i really missed the past memories. however, sadly, they can never be brought back into the present anymore.

[12:44. 11092005]
[open your eyes- kelly poon]

love, vannie. (3:44 AM)

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