thelittlelovetoken

today its like my day. hahas. i'm sho sho happie. maybe just contented bahs. anw, went out fer whole day today. at first in the morning, stayed at home to do social studies. i finished one structured essay already. hees. after that, went to british council. go see see the english courses, have to brush up my english. =)

den bought lunch back for jiejie. she have test ar. den have ta stay at home study. jiayou! yeah, den wet out again. at first daddie say wanna go town, but went to causeway pt instead. nvm huhhs, still okies. den go buy daddie working shoes, at bata.

i was forcing filian to try on the women's sandals. hahas, so fun! went to royal sporting house. whee! daddie bought a basketball. hahas yeah! so nice to bounce!! after that went to buy a watch from the whatever icon. so nice! hahas.

oh den i very tireds, cos' today never sleep for 3 hrs in the afternoon. hahas, piggy me, everyday take 3 hrs or so, of afternoon nap. =D haahs. den we went mac, bought sundae for myself, and mcnuggets student's meal for filian. yeah. eat eat eat, den go home again.

during the journey home, i was wearing daddie's spects. haha, love it huhhs. realli suited me. went home, den bluff jiejie, tell her i got new spects le. hahas, den she believe lor. she say suits me. haha.

went to mama hse, go eat. den dine got O lvls tmr. jiayou kkaes? the four of us watched EYE 10 after dinner. i watched it before le, so i was kinda going to sleep le. [watched in the dark]. hees, den dine keep screaming, till i also scared. still remember i watched it with yllej that time. hais.

okies. haha. reallie tired already. today keep hearing that lao shu ai da mi song. hear till so sickening le. bleahs. gonna go sleep already.

love, vannie. (3:58 AM)

report book..
Saturday, May 28, 2005

i've gotten my IC!! got it yesterday. hahas.i think its okies. only the smaller picture cannot reallie see my face. hahas, yllej also went to collect le. all thanks to meihwa for noticing the notice. =)

yeahhs. got back results today. hais. my L1R5 for term one and two is 26. hais, although i already expected it. perhaps, i should reallie start working hard on my studies....

today woke up reallie late, bout 0700. then rush like siao. daddy fetch me to school. its such a miracle that i wasn't late. den i didn't go for healthy lifestyle, wasn't feeling well. then mdm nora scolded me for not having an mc. hais. nvm. i've got nothing to say also.

for social studies, was like so fun yeahs. we had to explain the factors for the conflict between countries, using nursery rhymes. hahas. i was grouped with meihwa yihui and xiaofang. we used 'london bridge'. hahas. we didn't have enough time, so we did like 4 sentences only. yeah. den yllej was standing somewhere behind gniddup. okies, nvm. hais.

during chinese, i was like rushing myself. so scary, the time passing so quickly. den i still writing the 'thank you' letter so slowly. luckily huang jun help me, or else i dunnoe how to write at all. write finish le, wraped it around the Parker pen that we bought, and gave it to zhang lao shi. hais, he leaving our school for bedok view. so sad, 3/7's gonna miss you! we love ya!

i went to 883 with meihwa, after we ate our lunch. cos very sians, den go walk walk lorr. i had the sudden craving for pocky, that's why we went there. hahas. i just couln't make up my mind. eat the strawberry flavoured one or the milk one. in the end, i took the pink one. yay!

went back to school after that. wahs. everyone see me take pocky, den want. den that fatty felicia, wanna steal from me. hahas. then i go sit with huang jun, cos meihwa at wenzhu there. den i very lonely. hahas, see the boys all playing cards, den i just sit there talk to hj lor. in the end, the yllej take pocky for me. den i say give other ppl, den he wanna eat. give finish le, he come tell me that he haven eat. hahas, you were the one who took the first stick huhhs. think i never see huhhs. hees. gave 50 cents again. =)

about 2.40, met mr radha. after that, went home sleep again. hahas, piggy me. =D

love, vannie. (1:31 PM)

what am i going to do now?
Thursday, May 26, 2005

hais. i just feel so terrible. feeling so inferior. i just dunnoe. no words can describe how i actually feel at this point of time. can't someone out there just understand me? i dunnoe why... i dunnoe why is everything turning out like this? why is the outcome like this? should i regret doing all those i'd done?

today was the worst day ever. i went to school, drenched. i was soaking wet, and feeling reallie reallie reallie cold. the cruel wind was blowing against me. i shivered in my heart, but no one knew. i was so affected by everything i heard yesterday.

went for lessons, all wet. okies, yllej was late. i very guilty huhhs. yesterday took his physics book home to copy qns. then this morning rain mahs, so i put his book in my bag, den hold mine on my hand. didn't want his book to be wet. in the end, his book was wetter than mine, den ragged ragged liddat. feel so sorry. but then i went to apologise already. he say nvm. =x sry.

went to general office to look for extra clothing. but then they sat don't have already. i was so so so shivering cold. my shoes and socks were soaked too. anyway, english was boring. a-maths, eeveryone was rushing through the assignments. i sat at xiaomei [junyang] there. xiaomei so funny yahs.

by the way, i didn't go for band today. i was sick, i think. i was having headache, den my legs were still shivering, although the sun was scorching bright. i went home. i was all alone at home. den anyhow think again. i dunnoe why i'm like this. but i cannot change.

love, vannie. (12:43 PM)

i didn't expect all these to happen
Wednesday, May 25, 2005

i reallie didn't expect all these to be happening around me, without me knowing at all. those that i've trusted, turned around and pierced me hard in my heart. although i don't reallie know them well, they shouldn't have done all the despicable things.

anyway, meihwa, felicia, wanying, i not referring to you all huhhs. you all are the best! thankies for everything. =)

i dunnoe, but had i quite long talk with yihui just now. and i realised alot alot alot, and finally came to an understanding. i dunnoe what i did to them, for them to hate me so much and to do so many bad things behind my back.

all i can say is that i' reallie disappointed with ypu people. i'm not trying to snatch or what. its all up to you to misunderstand and misinterprete. there's nothing i can do to stop all these nonsense you people are creating. leaving me to clean up all the mess you've done.

i think i can no longer type anymore. i'm at the verge of tearing my heart out.

i just cannot understand why.
why must they do these to me?
what did i do to them?
i'm never snatching.

love, vannie. (12:52 PM)

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

haiyah. my results are like dunnoe wad. and currently, there's this funnie guy talking to me. i dun even know him at all. so irritating. sians. don't feel like talking to him sia. just get lost man. hmms. my L1R5, without english, is like 19 already. i flunk most of my subjects this semester! only chinese, chemistry improve only. hais. sad case.

hahas. today's lesson was okies. i listened to every lesson except physics (i lost hope for physics already). den chem and maths was okies. i was actually concentrating. hahas. so amazing yeahs. i can even remember everything! hahas.

then after school so sians. dunnoe where to go. ate ice-kachang with huiwen. okay fine. i ate the slowest there. meihwa and huiwen was like hurrying me. dunnoe for wad also. hahas. i took like 30 minutes to finish the bowl. cool.

eat finish liaos, den go do e-maths homework. was bored yahhs, so, you know, just find sth to do. messaged felicia. cos today she did not go to school. heard that she was sick. tell her to get well soon lorrs. but, i didnt receive any reply.

went to peiling's table to do maths instead, cos i was left alone. the four of us were like comparing results. as usual, i was the worst of them all. haiyah. sad huhhs. must work hard le. i cannot slack anymore! aiya. just saying here only. dont even know if i'm gonna do it. =x

went to bball court see them play. elda and veron also come join peiling, yingxian play. i never lorrs. cos no pe t shirt mahs. aiya, watch also can la. its still the same also. no difference.

had heart to heart talk with mummie just now. anyway, she tried to help my friends problem. but she dont understand yahhs. that's why. now i also dunnoe wad to do. hais. oh hees. i know sth also. but think ta bu zhi dao that i know larhhs. hahs. nvm. heck care.

- i just wanna stay like this and not move on.

love, vannie. (1:31 PM)

i dont know wad to do-
Saturday, May 14, 2005

hais. why is all these things coming to me again? hais. reallie saddening. cried in school for like many many times today. hais. just cannot control and hold back the tears.

love, vannie. (12:56 PM)

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