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i'm realli sorrie
Saturday, August 14, 2004
i am realli sorrie for all the things i have done today...fel and mh,thanx for all ur concern...sorrie that i have made u all worried...my greatest apology goes to my mum and jie...SORRY...
today may be the saddest dae in my life...=( feel so guilty........sorrie...........
todae went for band...kk la..din run with dem...wasn't feelin well...felt like vomitting also dunno why...ah mah sae morning sickness..mabbe bahx..i find that if i don see de sun,i will have morning sickness..so weird..oh ya..met him on de bus..he was wearing spects..he looked old...*bleahx*=p..couldn't recognise at first...
during band,we warm up veh long..i tink bout one half hrs..haha..mr neo ask him to change place.to teach junior...he was somewhere behind/beside me..anything...
i was listening to clive and jeremy tokin..den i heard him whisper:"pervert..."dotx... he was callin me..i turn lor...smiled at me den call me "pervertic crybaby" again...ignored him...
he so damn kay po de lor..there was a chair behind me ma..so i go put my 'i recommend' on it...den he wanted to take my bk for many times..but i diao him...so he neva take..
a while later,the chair was moving...he carried the chair with one of his leg...moved it in front of him...irritating...he take my book,look at the cover pg..den smile at me...wah lau..he saw my full name le..he called me "hui shan" =p...
finally,after a long look at my book,he put back and move back the chair to original place...but dunno why suddenly de chair became beside him...don care oso..keep putting his spects on my bk..later i take, throw away den u noe ar!!!=X oh..we played blue ridge saga for the whole dae..=)during the break,saw him playing the guitar...i din noe tt he noes how to play a guitar...=)he played qing tian wor..
aft band,got drilling...yee lu take half of us..libing take de other half...i with yee lu...we broke off into our grp..den we drill drill drill....haii..so tiring...=X siti was practically laughing at us..
had drilling competition btw the two grps..de best three had to compete with each other..libing grp got sinyee,bryan,peter...my grp got raidah,shayfern,jeremy...all of them so funny wor..hahax..oops..=X i so bad..=p dey keep turning wrong way...haii..don wanna elaborate oso...our grp lost..cuz the other grp all oso senior mah..=S
aft band,i went home..quarelled wit mum...i din wanna go for tuition...i dunno why...juz got that stupid feeling..den bluff mum that got to do pj wit mh...haii..in the end i went out...pretend that i go do pj...but i go find yee lu dey all, who were playing badminton at sembawang...haii
i went there do my own work...din play...i dunno...aft that, went to causeway wit yee lu and sin yee..yee lu's racket spoilt...den i on my fone...wah..got a shock out of my life...de vibration cant stop...so many messages...all telling me that got ppl call me when i was unreachable...den i realised that mh fel mummy and jie were looking for me...
mummy message me..she ask if she could meet me,cos she was also at causeway............met her outside sportslink...she cried...i was like..wanting to cry...we went to cold storage...only then, then filian told me that they went to my school,sun plaza and then causeway, just to look for me...i realli din noe...i shouldn't off my fone...
going home de time,mum talked to me..i cried in the bus...reached home...was realli tired...haven stop crying..msg fel and mh...noe everything le..called fell..she ask me why i liddat...all i could sae was that i dunno.........sorrie.............
den came online...now toking to him...jie actually called him..fel oso...dey thuoght that i would be wit him...but no..he wasn't there...
sadx...now stil haven stop crying...he keep asking me not to cry...he sae he'll listen if i got anything to sae......told him everythg.....he tried to make me laugh oso..but i just merely smiled...sorrie...but i realli felt btr after talking to him...xie xie ni...=)
once again,sorrie to those who worried and cared for me...a big hug for u all..SORRIE...
love, vannie. (3:30 PM)