thelittlelovetoken

haii...veh sad...
probably the saddest day in my life>?
dunnoe....kinda sick of everything liaos...
hmmm....no appetite oso..haii.....

diz morn went online...
he oso online...
kor(rr) came in later...
chatted wif kor..
den suddenly he come ask me sth...
"You won't mind if I like someone else right...?"
i wad like....wad?! ( to myself)....
nvm...i knew this wud happen one dae..
haii..i said i don care oso...

i realli tried to sound happie in the coversation...
he knew that i was forcing...he said this...
"I don't want you to force yourself to be happy"
"I know that feeling myself, I've always been doing it"
haii...dunnoe...i kept saying "haha"...
but actually, i was realli sad....*hiding*
haii..ask if i can still like him...
he said he cant do anything...yeah..true.....
budden everything happening
too fast le...
too sudden le...

went far east's mac with filian to wait for mum...
gotta stay there for 3 hrs....haii...
keep cying when i listening to- wo men de ai...
dunnoe...tears juz appeared....
filian saw...den he ask why...tell him i sad...
told him not to tell mum...=x

ha...during that 3 whole hrs,
i really cried alot...msg alot oso...
kor(jk) first to reply..
kor(rr) sec to reply...
den fel and mh....
haii....told all of them...
haii....dunnoe...
cried lotsa times, when telling them...

**haii....kor(rr),,,
where is my tissue huhh??
i still haven receive yet...
u throw to me le ma???**

aft that de things, don wanna mention...
it bout sexy beautiful...haii

went to eat pasta mania...haii...
din feel like eating...haii
mummy ask me to eat...den i eat lorr..

went to cold's storage...
mummy wanna buy things...
walk walk walk, suddenly,
like wanna faint...almost fell...
mummy sae too cold de bahz..
budden i had been wearing my jacket since o3.oopm...
dunnoe...mabbe i juz cannot take it???

haii went up de bus...gonna go hm...
kor(jk) msg me...
ask me can call le not..
hai...told him i don feel like toking on the fone...
out of the blue,
needed i hug...ask him for one..
he say okiez...as long as i don get the wrong idea..
hmmm....thankiex worrs....

sent the conversation to kor(jk)...
he sae he read liaos,
even sadder,
even more pain....
wah...he sad for me lehz...
he oso sae he's gonna care for me...
thankies...

alvino oso...xie xie...
thankies for your care and concern...
he oso sae gonna care for me...
thankies...

actually come to tink of it,
many ppl care for me...
yet i tot no one wud..haii..
*sorrie*

tmr gonna huggiex lotsa ppl...
kor(jk), RaBBit, XiAo NeMo...
haii....need them really badly...=x

haii...everyone gonna be there for me ar??
haii...thankies and sorries...=s
everything happened too sudden...
din have any mental preparation...haii..

-=see.wad.you.have.done.to.me=-
but thanks for telling me the truth?? i dunnoe...
dunnoe whether to love, hate or forgive....haii...
too much of an impact for me...haii...
gonna see if i can face the truth...
gonna see if i can face YOU and HER...
haii...dunnoe....gonna receive my hugs tmr....*fainting*

+=[*-/Love Hatred Forgiveness\-*]=+

love, vannie. (2:05 PM)

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