thelittlelovetoken

hais. bad day. chi o lvls orals.
i did terribly. i now it myself.
stupid me. everything was a flop.
hais.

i guess i can never do anythg well.
never in my studies.
i'm just such a damn failure.

when i went inside the room, i froze like hell.
and that examiner kept kicking my table.
can't be bothered with her.
my reading of the passage was so jerky.
my conversation was worse.

i went out of the room feeling horribly down.
tears started to well up immediately.
when i saw justina, i knew she cried too.
her eyes were red.
i called fel, and still cried.

she came down to comfort me. thanks!
i did not know where to go.
for a moment, i wanted to end my life.

i realised its not worth.

i went home when fel left.
was crying all the way
when i walked.
when i was in the bus.
when i reached hm.
when i talked to my mum.
when i hid in the toilet.
hais.
my world was crashing down upon me.

i guess, maybe i was way too nervous.
well, there's nth i can do now,
but cry over spilt milk.

perhaps i shud talk abt sth happy.
YIHUI AND I ARE FRIENDS AGAIN!
yay. haahaa.

and.... i went out with sisters' club.
hoho~ we took neoprints also.
lalalas. i love them all!
woots~

yeah. and i learnt to cherish ppl arnd me!
and thgs that happened all arnd!

right, such an achievement...
haha

okays, recently, i've been staring at jelly more and more ~~openly~~.
hahas. when i turn my head,
the first person i see is him! haha.

yah. and i get caught red handed everyday.
or shud it be red eyed?
hmms, aiya, he just catches me looking at him!
haha

hmm, on tuesday, he was so cute.
we were going to the side to take chemicals.
by chance, i was standing right beside him.
and like so close. so damn close!

when he turned i realised the distance btw us.
hahas. okay, and he smiled.
he asked me which expt i was doing,
when i replied him, he gave such a big reaction!

he was like:
eh! same as me!
and he laughed to himself.
he's reaction was oh-so-cute!

and today, he was so weird.
he was standing at the doorway of our class.
i was standing opp him.
he looked at me, and gave me a mischevious smile.
he took the handle and tried to close the door on me!

oh! i was thinking...
he wanted to keep me outside the class. haha.
so cute hars..
when i showed a being maligned face,
laughed at me and opened up the door.

haha, and we sort of walked tgt to the stairs.
just cos they he and someone was right behind us.
haha.

while waiting at the rm,
he asked who was going for orals next.
it was me...
hahas. i dunnoe if he knew.
but he was looking at me when he asked that question.
maybe he did that on purpose! humph!

luckily tmr got lessons, den can still see my beloved jelly.
haha. wonder if i will back face him.
lols. haha.

i'm beginning to think he's getting more and more adorable!

love, vannie. (11:42 AM)

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