thelittlelovetoken

i want to apologise to everyone.

i'm so sorry if i did anyone wrong.
i'm so terribly sorry.

sorry for causing all the misunderstandings.
sorry for making anyone upset.
sorry for making anyone unhappy.

i'm coming to terms with myself.

i'm just trying so hard to recover from all that had happened.
but i think it all takes time.
cos i still cant face any of them.
i don't dare to.

why?
cos i've did them wrong.
i shouldn't have said those.
i'd rather keep it to myself.
i feel so bad.
terrible. horrible.

this morning was putting on a fake smile, again.
my morning was terrible. pressurised.
just don't understand and don't care how i feel.
hais. nvm.

msged wy tell her to meet me at the toilet.
i sat on the floor and told her everythg.
i guess i was feeling so sorrowful.
i got emotional.and cried.

i wanted so much to call fel and jk.
but i just did not have the courage to.
i'm sry.

i wanna thank wy and yh for their care.
thank you so much :)

thurs, fri, sat.
i lived in pain.
for the rest of the days,
i believe it'll be worst?
i'm not sure. =x

just 2 months ago,
i told myself.
i MUST cherish all my friends.

and see wad i've done now.

typing those long long messages.
it did bring alot alot of tears.
probably able to fill a few bottles?
my pillow is always soaked
with all my painful memories.

i didn't know that all these would have happened.
if only i had shut my mouth up.
if only i didn't get upset.
if only i didn't talk to jk.
if only i didn't let anyone know.
hais. if only...

as i've said before.
i've lost everythg.
yet again...

sorry everyone...

love, vannie. (3:57 PM)

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