thelittlelovetoken

专属天使
Tank

我不会怪你对我的伪装
天使在人间是该藏好翅膀
人们愚蠢鲁莽而你纤细善良
怎能让你为了我被碰伤

小小的手掌厚厚的温暖
你总能平复我不安的夜晚
不敢想的梦想透过你的眼光
我才看见它原来在前方

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

小小的手掌大大的力量
我一定也会像你一样飞翔
你想去的地方就是我的方向
有我保护笑容尽管灿烂

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

要不是你出现
我一定还在沉睡
绝望的以为生命只有黑夜

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

love, vannie. (5:33 PM)

Unfaithful
Rihanna

Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company

Hes more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
The clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true

And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer

I feel it in the air
As I'm doing my hair
Preparing for another day
A kiss up on my cheek
He's here reluctantly
As if I'm gonna be out late
I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where I'm about to go
And we know it very well

Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer

Our Love, his trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this
Anymore (anymore)

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer (a murderer)

love, vannie. (5:01 PM)

Hurt
Christina Aguilera

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I want to call you but I know you won't be there

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just want to hide 'cause it's you I miss
You know it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
If I had just one more day, I would tell you how much that
I've missed you since you've been away

Oh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line to try to turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself

By hurting you

love, vannie. (4:40 PM)

The polyclinic was kind of efficient today. People always say that polyclinics are slow and not efficient. However, I beg to differ. The way they work and organise things are fast. Which is why I'm typing a post about it! And it's also my FIRST time visiting a polyclinic! Hah!

I arrived at about 10.30 and was greeted by the line of words which really bored me. " You have to wait for an approximate time of 1 hr and 56 mins to see a doc. " Since we were there already, we decided to go in.

Went for registration and were told to wait for my turn. The people at the registration counter was very friendly, though I didn't understand what he was talking at first. Then, we moved upstairs to wait for my turn. Wait. Wait.. Wait...

Was almost falling asleep whilst watching Channel News Asia for half an hour. Then! My queue number was flashed! So i went in...

My doctor's name is Mariam George. She's a really nice lady. :] I had always had an impression that the doctors and nurses at the polyclinics are fierce and unfriendly. But this doctor is everything that is opposite from my thinking. So ya, she was nice.

Okay, so I am now referred to Tan Tock Seng Hospital to consult a specialist. Actually I had already consulted my uncle who suggested that having a polyclinic refer me would be better than letting him do it. It would cost so much more!

The appointmet date is fixed on 13th April. A Friday. Which took me quite sometime to realise that it's Friday The Thirteenth! Oh my. No wonder I was having a weird feeling when the nurse told us the day and date. Haha! How coincident!

Anyway, the waiting time was really shorter than expected. 1 hour 56 mins reduced to 30 mins! Hees! :]

Mummy and I went for lunch and we went home. I took my medication and went to sleep. ( Two of my medicine are those that may cause drowsiness. So I took the chance and say that I will be super- drowsy. And off to nap I went!) Haha. She knew I was finding excuses though! :D

Slept at around 15.30 to 18.30. Hahas. 3 full hours of sleep! Apparently Mummy knew that I want to watch Hua Yang Shao Nian Shao Nu, so she woke me up! Hahas.

The show is so cute can! And especially Wu Chun!!! Haha! He is so handsome! His eyes are so so so BIG! Heh! I noticed him when I first saw the Fahrenheit group. Haha! :]

love, vannie. (3:50 PM)

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

I'M SO HAPPY! And that's because my missing two entries are finally posted! YAY! I'd been trying to get them posted the past few days but nothing seemed to work. So here I am, getting all so happy and excited cos changes can be viewed by everyone now! Hahas! That's me!! :]

Juat now when I came online, a msn conversation came up. It was Lex meimei. What he said really made my day! Hahas. Although I didn't get the chance to chat with him, as he was going to bed, I really missed him like everyone else! Hahas. So, takecare and misses everyone!

I'm so so so scared of my sinus. It's like getting worse. Imagine having a piece of extra flesh in your nose. It's really blocking my nose! I really can't breathe. When i sneeze or blow my nose, it just hurt so much! Mummy's going to bring me to the polyclinic tomorrow to check on it. I don't want an operation to BURN or CUT them, medication will do, please...

My kitchen sort of caught fire today. It was really traumatising with with the huge huge fire getting so close to you! But, I became the firewoman by splashing a small pail of water to extinguish it! Yeah, and luckily I was near the kitchen. I cannot imagine my mum dealing with it herself. *Whew!*

Apparently, my mum covered the walls and table around with newspaper to prevent them from getting too oily as she was frying fish. She seldom fries food. So little did she know that the newspaper would slip and come in contact with the fire on the stove. And that was how the fire came about. My mum threw the two pieces of newspapers that caught fire onto the ground and I didn't know what to do. And I grabbed the small pail and got rid of the fire. It was very frightening! :x

Well, last night I had a series of weird dreams that I was caught in serious dilemmas. It was more of nightmares for me. I don't know why. But there seems to be a reason for it to be pestering me non-stop.

love, vannie. (3:59 PM)

Friday, February 23, 2007

Saturday [16th December 2006]
Woke up really early for breakfast as it was almost time to fly back to Singapore! Hahas. Was really sleepy when the personal van came to fetch us again. We checked in and walked inside the airport. The new one.

Then I saw this Doggie! Hahas, I 'daringly' took a photo with it. It doesn't look fake right? Hahas. As if I would go so near a dog let alone pat it. LOL! But it's cute la. looked real! =)

Finally, we touched down in Singapore. Nothing beats the feeling of being home! I'm so proud to be a Singaporean okay? Haha!

Finally we reached home! I unpacked everyone's bag and while doing that, I very conveniently dozed off on the floor. Too tired and exhausted I guess. Hehs. Was a really great trip! I enjoyed it VERY VERY much!! :] Tata!

love, vannie. (2:43 PM)

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

It's been 2 weeks since I last blogged. Well, I was busy with stuffs and also lazy to come online. TV is more important to me now! HAHA. So many nice shows for me to watch! YAY! Oh, and I received 2 roses from Felicia and Wanying as Valentines' Day Present on Friday! Pink from Fel and Blue from Wanying! (my favourite colours of roses!) Thankies! :]

Guess I'm missing out quite A LOT, so I'd better update! :]

Release of O Level results
[9 February '06]
I'm quite satisfied with my results, though there's a little disappointment. Who will not be sad when the L1R5 is considered quite high? Anyways, this is the first time I achieved below 20 points. Heh, a big feat for me!

L1R5: 18 ,L1R4: 14

English: B3
Chinese: A2
Combined Humans: B4
E-Maths: A2
A-maths: C5
Chemistry: B3
Physics: B4

Particulary happy with my Physics and A-Maths results though. Haha. I'd NEVER imagine I'd get a B4 for Physics when I very disgustingly got an F9 for prelims! LOL. For A-Maths, I got a D7 for prelims. Never expected to pass these two subjects! It's still so unbelievable to me!

JAE application
I really hope that I can get into the course that I want, which is Biomedical Science. Actually, I got kind of pissed off with my cousin's look when she learned about it. She just looked so shocked, like as if I won't be able to do it. Whatever it is, I'm going to work really hard!
Just because she cannot do it, doesn't mean I can't.

1. Biomedical Science- Singapore Poly
2. Biomedical Science- Ngee Ann Poly
3. Leisure & Resort Management- Temasek Poly
4. Business Administration- Singapore Poly
5. Business Management- Nanyang Poly
6. Marketing- Nanyang Poly
7. Pharmacy Science- Ngee Ann Poly
8. Pharmaceutical Science- Nanyang Poly
9. Business Studies- Ngee Ann Poly
10. Chemical Process Technology- Singapore Poly
11. Hospitality & Resort Management- Nanyang Poly
12. Business/Logistics & Operations/Marketing- Temasek Poly

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

Chinese New Year Eve
I stayed up till 0330 that night cos no one wants to accompany me watch TV. Initially, my siblings and I planned to stay up as late as possible, for there's a saying that the later you stay up in Chinese New Year eve, the LONGER your parents will live.

However, my brother dozed off around 0130 while my sister around o215. Mummy slept around 0300. There was no one to accompany me anymore, so I watch a bit more of TV and went to bed. LOL. So early. Nevermind, it's the thought that counts! :]

First Day

I was like promoting for M Industrie cos my top and skirt were from there! Heh. Like everyone was saying? Lol. (I'll load some photos another day! Heh!) We visiting with my paternal side. The places we go are like getting lesser and lesser every year. So much for the conflicts by the generation before mine, causing us to receive lesser and lesser hong baos! Humph!

Didn't really ate or drank during visiting. No appetite though. Weirdly, I went home and started eating the gua zi. Heh Heh! I guess I prefer eating at home!

Second Day

I was clad in my red dress with leggings for the day! Haha! I really looked like a WALKING RED PACKET! Haha! I so love the dress can? My 8 years-old cousin dressed just like me! Like the opposite colours. Mine was Red with Whit polka dots, while hers was the other way round! Heh! My uncle called us the RETRO GIRLS!

Went visiting with Mummy's side. We even went to visit my paternal Grandma. It just felt so warm, the bond between my two families. No conflicts, no gossiping, no negative feelings. So nice to have my maternal and paternal Grandmas click so well even though they speak different dialects. Just so beautiful. :]

I had so much fun! Better than the first day. Since young, I'd always look forward to the 2nd Day of Chinese New Year. Seeing my sis and I bond with the younger cousins. (We're the eldest two.) Taking so many pictures with my lovely cousins. Nothing beats the bond we have! :D

Third Day

My family visited my favourite grand aunt yesterday. So was so glad that we had the heart to visit her. In the past, we used to visit her on the first day. But as I said earlier on, conflicts prevented us to visit her on the first day. So we always visit her on another day!

It's so amazing how I'm not scared of the doggie at their house. I used to climb on the chairs refusing to walk until someone catches her. Well, I always went there for tuition. Yeah, everyone was surprised how I've grown out of it! I'm not scared of dogs anymore! HAHA!

Had lunch at Parkway Parade and went to visit my aunt's place before going to my uncle's place. Both are my mom's siblings. Just went to sit sit, eat eat and talk talk. Had buffet dinner at my uncle's place.

After dinner I sort of 'played' Hide and Seek with the younger kids. Well, i was responsible for finding places to hide them. It was easy though, considering how big the house was, 3 storey high and wide! :)

Watched the adults and my sis play Black Jack. I'm still watching. I don't play. Haha. I don't know why. I just didn't felt ready to gamble yet. Maybe Hide and Seek suits me better? Haha! Just joking! XD

Well, that is the end of the few days of fun and laughter!

Sadly, I caught the sore throat bug last night. So I'm now still drinking loads and loads of plain water like I did for the whole day today! I'm so healthy today! I drank more than 8 glasses of water like they always say! Heh! Good nights! Tata!

love, vannie. (5:02 PM)

Friday, February 09, 2007

Surprisingly, Night At The Museum was still showing on Tuesday. So my mom, bro and I went to catch it. My father gave me two complimentary tickets for the show, luckily it was still showing. So we just had to pay for one person. And i treated my mom to the movie! =)

So it's just tomorrow. I'm really very scared. And calm too.. Well, I mean it's like the results are already out, no point getting scared all over. Just face it bahs. All i can do now is to pray. For good results. I just wonder where I'm going after tomorrow. My fate is already sealed though. I really want to do my parents and family proud. I never want to be trampled by them ever again.

I don't know what to blog about already. Guess i'm just not in the mood anymore.
Started with a smile, ended with a tear...

love, vannie. (10:09 AM)

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

It's officially announced that the O level results will be released on Friday, 9th February 2007.

Ohmygod, I'm so scared can. What am I gonna do??? Oh no no no... I'm so gonna pray everyday, with all my heart and sincerity... God, please help me!!

Okays. As you can see, I'm so super worried and scared. I'm not gonna think it's an ending for me, no matter what the results show. All I know is that it's the beginning instead. So, I won't give myself up. :]

Today I went to Causeway Point to watch Once In A Summer. Yeah, was waiting so long to watch it. The show was sad. I can't imagine myself going through that. It's just like dilemma. (:

While waiting for the bus to go cwp at the bus stop, I met jelly. Well, he called out for me. Hahas, I was thinking who on earth was calling me at the bus stop. So i turned and saw him. Lol. I stone for a few seconds lo. So paiseh! Haahaas. He suddenly looked so tall. Yup, we took the same bus to Causeway. He sat far back, I sat in the middle in the bus. Apparently, he is staying at my house opposite there. I was totally clueless. Why will I see him ah? Fate? Who knows? ;)
Just when i least expected it...

I have to say this. Though I didn't really talked to him, I'm just happy to see him, you know? I don't know. But i feel DIFFERENT already. Not like the past. Maybe i just missed him as a friend. I miss kenn too. Chatted with him just now, I so miss his jokes man. LOL!

Okays. I bought a dress on Friday! I took a picture of it! Went to Wheelock place, Far east and Takashimaya for a walk. I spent like the whole day at Far east. Ate sakae sushi with jiejie. Hahas. And I got my white beads necklace! Haaha. Most importantly, I BOUGHT MY KOREAN GUIDE BOOK!! YAY!!

my dress! it's not as short as it seems. looks more like a top here. can be worn as a top too :]

love, vannie. (4:16 PM)

Friday, February 02, 2007

Friday [15th December 2006]
Okays. Back again! For this day, it's definitely the relaxing day for us. And that is us without our papa. He went to meet his friends to discuss work. Hehs. One of his friend stays there and another is there for holidays too.

Yep, so we went downstairs for breakfast as usual. After breakfast, we went my papa brought my brother to go buy his gameboy cartridge before meeting his friends. And my mama went to the Big C shopping centre just right beside our hotel for a walk, while my sissie took a nap. The supermarket there is like the giant we have in Singapore. Yeah, and I got a brown long sleeve and a pair of shorts there. Hees. :D

hahas. mummy created this during breakfast! :D

Oh yah, then we went swimming!! Hahas. SWIM SWIM SWIM! The first time I was swimming in year 2006!! Hahas. After swimming, there was a taiwanese drama so interesting that my sis and I stayed to watch, while my brother and mom goes shopping again, at the Big C shopping centre! They bought MANGO RICE back!! Yummy! :)

Hehs! Yaya, so rest a bit more and went for dinner. Apparently, we went to the Big C shopping centre again. Finally, we ate at Chester's Grill. Yeps like a fast food restaurant. Hmms, I would say it is like Cavana. :)

Yap yap, and it was packing time!! While packing, we ate donuts that looked oh-so-cute! Papa bought mango rice (this one was nicer) and dessert for us!! Hehs!!

Coming back again to update on the leaving of Bangkok..

love, vannie. (12:19 PM)

Seems like I'm becoming like a PIG these days. Oh my god. It's scary. My mum doesn't really asks me to do cleaning anymore. But I still do housework like ironing and folding of clothes. Yep, so maybe she sees that I'm actually doing something and maybe the cleaning spree is over? Hmms, not really. I still have my brother's and my own bookshelves to clean. Perhaps tomorrow? I lazy... :x

Heh, so I'm sort of lazing around the house and watching A LOT of TV. LIke the whole morning and afternoon? Evening, I will stop for a while, then it's TV time in the night again. Oh no!! I'm turning into a real TV addict!!

Someone, STOP ME!!!

Okays. So I've watched like so many vcds this week. Let's see.
Poseidon
Bewitched
The Pacifier
That should be all. Not a lot to some, but to me, loads for a week. :]

Whees~ I'm so looking forward to watching the movie, Once In A Summer!! YAY! I haven't stepped into the movie theatre this year yet!! The last time was for CHARLOTTE'S WEB on 31st December 2006!! Hahas. See how pathetic i am? (:

I realised something that i have forgotten to do and have since remembered!I haven't finished posting on my Bangkok trip!! I shall continue now then. LOL!

Okays. I shall post another specially for it. Heh!! :]

Tata for now!

love, vannie. (11:50 AM)

Thursday, February 01, 2007

LOVES

LOVES!!

Haha. Looks like I don't have much to say. Lols. Okays okays. A random pic of me for all of you!! Yeah yeah, I admit. I have NOTHING better to do. LOL!

In case any of you is wondering how onearth my blog became so PINKISH, I shall let it all out here, now.

Apparently, I got sooooooooooooo irritated with the "Bandwidth Exceeded" thingy that I actually went to photobucket.com to find out what on earth that was. Yah, as I said earlier on, I have nothing to do. Yeah, so back to the topic...

So I got so desperate trying to get that stupid line of the same "Bandwidth Exceeded" picture disappear from my blog. And I did! YAY! Clever Vannie! Yes, I just edited the template and got rid of the GREEN border that you usually see!! YAY!

Okays. And I tried by changing the background from white to blue to green to orange and finally pink! Then I proceeded to the colour of the fonts. Heh, I changed to purple and brown as black was far too strong for the eyes. Yep, next, my cbox. Changed the theme, a little adjustments to the colours and done!!

Hahs. The headings went for a makeover after many many tries of ugly fonts, this is the one i wanted! Hahahahahas!! So GIRLIE!! LOL.

Okays okays, vannie IS girlie... :]

Yups. And everthing ended like this!! YAY!!!! Happy ending for my bloggie and ME!

HAHAS! I'M SORRY YOU HAVE TO READ THIS! I HAVE NOTHING TO BLOG, THAT'S WHY! :D

love, vannie. (11:09 AM)

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