thelittlelovetoken

~~Alive~~ Alright and kicking.
Finally I'm alright. Though I still have the feeling to puke whenever I smell too strong a fragrance or pungent smell.
Poor thing..

I went to T3 on Sunday with Family, Grandma, Cousins and Shaun.
Very interesting place to visit. Just $1 dollar and you can enter the arrival hall etc!
But one thing bad. Too HUGE a place.
I walked till I had fever.
Gosh.

School was okay yesterday.
Went for PS lecture so that I won't have to wake 1hour earlier tmr!
There was this floorball guy who smiled at me just 'cos I was holding on to Rayner's floorball stick. Like hahaha, he must have thought I was his fellow cca-mate or sth.
Seriously..

Today's just a restless day for me.
We even played cards during the break.
Guess we're all just too tired to get on with projects.

Andrew the pig kept drawing on my POM lecture book!
OMG! It's like so colourful at the wrong areas!
Humph!
But I shall forgive him since he sacrificed his sleep to read ALOT of online jokes to me last night before bed-time!
(Hey! The little boy flying away with his kite hairstyle!)

Econs was a sleepy crap. So so so sleee eeee eepy...
Rayner and I kept competing to see who could copy faster.
Funny la. I knew why I copied faster for once, actually I cheated.
I used short forms. :D

Ooh! I look nice carrying backpacks.
Like so sec school days!
I miss the backpack-ing days. Plus, I look nicey too!
Gonna scour for a backpack soon!

This is how Rayner looks with my bag and his attempt to look nerdy.
He's really really evil. Laughing at other people.
And me, looking ♥ly with his backpack! :D

love, vannie. (10:51 PM)

I can't find words to say.
Saturday, November 24, 2007

I'm happy as it is now.
I can feel the love in the air.
No, not relationship wise. (I'm still far away from that..)
But the love for my family and friends. (:

Anyways, I'd been to TTSH yesterday for a follow up again.
And I was told I'm still healing and would only need to go back 4 months later!
Which means it'll be in March! Whee!
But the not so good news is that I have to be dependant on nasal sprays for long term because of my sensitive nose. Other than that, all's well!

Went to Andrew's house for Prin of Mgt.
(POM for short and POM cha cha to Rayner, ha!)
I was so tired I lay on the bed for quite long after we're finished with proj.
I lay there to sleep while the rest played Chinese chess.
They looked like elderly at the void decks. Hees (:

We played a little cards and went off for dinner after that.
Andrew got his choice, so we ate LJS at Hougang Green.
Andrew and I went to Rayner's house.
They played some PS2 soccer while I played the keyboard.
I miss music! :(

Walked to this coffee shop and ate satay.
Funny la. The guys like ah peks, seriously.

Both accompanied me to Compass to take 965.

The guys so nice (:
I like to talk to them.

♥s loves!

love, vannie. (4:16 PM)

It feels good today. (:
Tuesday, November 20, 2007

The feeling I'm getting for the whole day is generally fine and good. (:
Everyone's been fine all day. Everything went on smoothly.
However, I feel so bad for telling a white lie today.

Handed in Resume and thought I did okay.
I didn't bother to make any more amendments.
And that Andrew stole my desktop right in front of me!
Humph.

Soccer Videos were really hilarious the guys and I laugh till we almosted died.
It was so funny I tell you!
Go to Youtube to watch!! :D

Went to Mensa with the guys to do F&B individual proj.
While the girls stayed in the lab to do their stuffs.
The uncle was very friendly and nice. Even went into his stall to take a pic with him.
Haha!

Slacked in the study room for a while to play cards.
Irritating. I could have won 5 rounds if I were taught not to end with spades 2!
Ha! But it's okay. It's only my second time playing! :D
Andrew had to treat cos he lost. Hees.

Had to shop for our veggies for F&B tutorial.
Mine is English Parsley. Not easy to find!
Andrew, Xavier and I had a hard time searching...
So I breathed a sign of relieve when I found it in NTUC! :D

Finally came home after a long day out.
Sighs. I'm so tired yet I still have a lot to finish.
I'm done with the F&B tutorial! Omg, damn time-consuming..

Was chatting with Rayner earlier just now.
What he said really made my day!
Didn't expect a guy to tell me this! Haha!
I'm so over the moon!

vanesssa but yet again, I feel the distance. says:
when i see you guys, i feel sad for you all.. :(

raynering - ice cream says:
for wad?

vanesssa but yet again, I feel the distance. says:
how i know? i just feel the sadness.

raynering - ice cream says:
siao ger

raynering - ice cream says:
frankly speaking i really luv ur character

vanesssa but yet again, I feel the distance. says:
what so lovely abt it. haha.

raynering - ice cream says:
u so easily affected by others
i nvr seen a ger like you be4

In a couple of hours I'll be up and bus-sing down to school.
Loves people!

(I suddenly miss IOS alot!)

love, vannie. (3:16 AM)

Irony at its strongest point.
Sunday, November 18, 2007

Hello love.
A tinge of melancholy as usual.
Pathetic is just the right word.

Like there's sth bothering me.
Maybe the stress's burning up my brain.
I wanna rest, yet I can't, even though I can.
Sounds ironic huh? Definitely.
That's just how complicated my life is right at this moment.

My stupid bloated tummy is making things worse.
Girl's problem. Go away soon, please.
I don't wanna have a stupid big tummy like Pooh and Barney.

See, I'm whining again.
Now I understand. :)

love, vannie. (11:47 PM)

The words that stabbed.

Please.
I know you guys are in my life for a reason.
But, don't go away once the job is done in pulling me up when I fall.
I don't know what will become of me.
I guess I'll go insane.

Don't leave me alone to cry.

love, vannie. (1:47 AM)

Play the film all over again.
Saturday, November 17, 2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAYNER!

He claims it's still his birthday now till 17 nov, 7.30pm.
The birthday boy's got his say!

Ha, today's basically just like any other normal days.
School then proj time.
Somehow today just felt like a super duper long day for me.
So long that it scares me to know how much memories I have in me for today.

The films just played right in my mind.
This film is colourful though, cos it just happened today.

Went to the Japanese Restaurant near school after projects.
Kinda like a celebration dinner for him. :D

Played a few games that require us to swallow a horrible mix of things when we got unlucky. I was on for 2 to 3 times, I guess.
I CAN'T EAT WASABI! Almost puked.

Oh! I got to learn a card game everyone probably knows.
Like finally. The one whereby Spade is the biggest? I guess so.
I'm always confused and wasn't really interested in learning.
Then today Rayner taught me!
Like no one bothered to teach me in the past. :(

Wahaha! Not bad ah. At least now I can play with them!
I used to be able to play only Bluff! with them! HA!

hello! one eye for you.

love, vannie. (1:06 AM)

Weak. Emotionally.
Thursday, November 15, 2007

Been really emotionally weak these few days.
Just kept thinking about a lot of things.
Maybe the time of the month is approaching?

I just feel weird.

During work, I just watched the fireworks silently for both shows.
SOS peeps are fine, Jonathan and Firdaus worked with me yesterday.
Nice people, I'd say.

I called Andrew last night regarding something. But we kept changing topics and talked the whole night away. Not forgetting the tears that flowed and flowed several times. I wished things would be for the better for me. Friends. Relationships. Anything.

Then Rayner joined in. Lol.
It's like a family talk on the phone. :)
The warmth can be felt...
These chatting sessions somehow made me feel closer to them.

But yet again, I feel the distance.

Actually after hearing what Andrew had said to me, I feel at least a little more assured. I know they care for me. Past experiences had brought up an insecure girl in me.

Now, I really feel like a little girl being loved by big brothers :)

Loves.

love, vannie. (9:57 PM)

Sunday, November 11, 2007

The pests are at my house now! :D

love, vannie. (6:49 PM)

Week. Hearts.
Saturday, November 10, 2007

The past few days weren't really that exciting or anything for me to be happy about.
Well, I'll just summarise everything then.

Tuesday: The day Amanda turned 19.
I was running here and there like a lunatic! Ha, and I think fishie almost spoilt the whole plan we had for Amanda. And so, she was happy I guess. Didn't go to Ikea with Andrew and Xavier.

To tell the truth, I was really bushed. My eyelids were so heavy!

Wednesday: The worst and the best day this week.
(The worst thing) Was really in for alot alot of stress.
And after POM, I just let everything out to them. Cried for the second time in school. Both for the same reason: Stress plus disappointment.

Left for work with Carmen after that.

Worked for Songs of the Sea and noticed the people there are different from the others of Attractions Ops. Just different. We're required to dance too! Ha.

(The best thing) Rayner arranged for a conference at 11 plus with Andrew. I was really exhausted actually, so I ate my dinner and spoke to them. We talked for around 2 hours and 30 mintues. I was really touched by the both of them. :D Nah, I really didn't expect anyone to care for me. I thought they would be ranting about me instead.

And for some reason or another, they told me about what the group had to say about me and all. The girls thought I wasn't sociable with them and thought I've changed.
Till now, I still find what both the girls had said really amusing.

I told the guys they were treasures to me! :D

Thursday: Slacky work.
Did housekeeping with Sheila. Tie hair, glue stuffs and dust clothings we the basic things we did. Were let off at 3pm!

Met family at Vivo and I got myself a blue Esprit short babydoll for $39.90.
Sad. I couldn't part with my cash.

Friday: Changing.
We did some project findings at the library. I feel different after talking to the two guys on Wed. Like I've gained family members. Haha, Papa Rayner and Ahgong Andrew (whom rayner keeps insisting is ahpek). So weird. :p

I forgot to bring my pencilcase home :( and Andrew had to give me a call. I really thought they took it on purpose. But I was careless. Rayner had to help me bring it home. (:

Went for a haircut. Layer and fringe. I look a little fresher. (:

love, vannie. (5:58 PM)

dead tired.
Tuesday, November 06, 2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMANDA! :D

The darn mascara just wouldn't come off my eyelashes.
It's like getting dry all over again and coming off only when I rub my eyes.
Argh! Why did I ever get the hyper long stay thing?

I'm dead dead tired.
And I think I'm kinda not well.
Feeling nausea since morning after I rode in Dad's car.
He was driving at an alarming speed!

And the bus was too, driving very very fast on my way home.
So yah, it's like double torture today!

My mind's tired.
Tired of your obsession.

sentosa attraction ops uniform!

love, vannie. (12:52 AM)

Lovely!
Friday, November 02, 2007

Today's a LOOOVELY day!

The day started with a not so happy mode. Well, I was basically worn out and feeling very cold. I snuggled in my bed even after washing up. How I wished I could lie there till I couldn't get enough.

School was crap with just 2 hours of lec and I was done for the day. And I have a very terrible Macroecons text now. All thanks to Andrew who was constantly doodling all over my text throughout the lec.

Saw Serene at Mensa! :D Salad girl.

Went to work after school with Rayner today! And went home with Felicia and Lihui today! :D
Whee! I feel so lucky ya. Today's really a special day for me :D
♥ y'all peeps!

love, vannie. (11:29 PM)

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