thelittlelovetoken

Mom gave me some advice just now while I was studying.
And I talked to Andrew about it.
I guess what both said were right.
Mom's words woke me up again.

Well, I just have to be hard up when facing this.
I know everyone's tried and tried.
But has anyone ever wondered if I'd been trying to find a time out?
It's so stressful to see those messages.
For I have really no idea what to reply.

Then again, I don't want to disappoint anyone.
But how to when I don't have any choice but to say no?
We all have our lives to live.

And especially so when mine is so different.

It's so frustrating I just lost interest.
Again and again.

Honestly, I don't see myself enjoying when I go for gatherings.
I feel like a stranger and very left out.
Not because I never open myself up.
We just don't have common topics.

Maybe I've just disappointed you guys too much already.
Maybe you guys shouldn't have placed too much hope on me.
Maybe we should understand each other's differences more.
Or rather, my difference from you girls.

I still feel you guys in my hearts.
If you ever wondered...

Daryl said something which got me thinking...
he said:
they should be encouraging you.
thats what friends are for.
for comfort.
encouragement.
love.
even a getaway to ease your troubles.
from friends, the word 'stress' shouldn't exist at all.

love, vannie. (1:40 AM)

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